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A new place to call home.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Now that I see that our rebuilding efforts are going no where I bit the bullet and recently moved into a small condo unit in a Senior development. It is very small, only 975 square feet. It is going to be very hard to carry the expenses on 2 houses but I have no choice. The timeline is too far out of when I will be able to get back in.

My town is still battling FEMA's new elevation maps. They do not want to issue building permits till it gets resolved. Right now the maps say I have to 11 feet above sea level. I can't climb those many stairs so I will wait. They are estimating about6 more months to resolve, then the house will have to be elevated, and then the rebuilding can start. The estimated time is about 24 months before I can get back.

If I want to rebuild now, I can but it must be at the highest level of the flood maps. I'll wait to see how it pays out because to raise my house to 11 feet above sea level will cost over $100,000 which I don't have. Then I have the cost of the rebuilding of the actual house.

So even though Hurricane Sandy is long gone, 6 months, for me ( and others-about 100,000 houses) it is not.

Lost almost everything but thank God I was able to get a lot of my clothes out that was above the flood waters. Wish I could have saved my kitchen stuff, dishes, pots, and pans, etc. but that all was contaminated. I lost my Magic Bullet but was able to catch a sale for a new one for $39.00. I did get my heavy duty blender out and dehydrator but my food processor was lost. Those items are the most important ones for my Raw eating plan.

I just finished the painting of the house and decided to do entirely different colors. I loved the colors of my old house. The living room and hallway was a beautiful raspberry that went perfectly with the colors in my living room set. It was an old English floral pattern with lots of shades of green and shades of raspberry so it pulled in all of the colors. My kitchen was a shade of teal and one wall of the living room backed up to the kitchen but the colors actually worked. My family thought I was nuts to choose those colors till they saw the finished rooms.

However they begged me not to paint the living room raspberry again since this condo is so much smaller than my house. It would not be able to carry such a dramatic color and darker colors would make the living room even smaller.

I really wanted the raspberry again but then I decided that I didn't want anything to remind me of the old house so I painted the living room honey beige which is more gold in color, the kitchen is now peach, and my bedroom is a really pretty shade of green (like eucalyptus) and it is very calming.

Not sure if the changing of the color choices have made the difference, by not reminding me of my destroyed home, but I am actually feeling a lot better than I have in a long time. I know moving here improved my mental well being because I know have a place to hang my clothes, my own bed to sleep in, and I can start to rebuild my life. It was really hard for me to accept the kindness of my friends and family and impose on their lives for the time I did stay at their homes. Six plus months is a long time. Still need to go to counseling but at least I am looking at life a little more positive.

I never thought I would end up in a Senior Development this young at 58 but I really love the peacefulness here. I always planned on retiring in one but the rents are actually cheaper here and I now have a garage and they have 2 beautiful pools here. Right now I need the tranquility to heal. I am so stressed out and my brain is fried. I can't concentrate on anything and I can't make decisions (which is probably why I didn't stick to my guns and paint my living room or even anything raspberry? emoticon
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    You are doing so great. I know your brain feels overloaded, but you are doing great...sharing, keeping perspective, moving forward. Really, you're amazing.
    Please don't forget it!
    1745 days ago
    So happy you have a place of your own.

    1745 days ago
    Glad to hear you are getting settled again. Your colors sound beautiful!
    1746 days ago
    So so happy for you on having a place to call your own now. ((((((BIG HUGS))))))
    1746 days ago
  • LGAR519
    So glad to hear that you have a place to live now. I have been thinking about you and praying. I know you will make the best of what you have now!
    1746 days ago
  • DB1167
    So glad you found a place to make your own. Hugs
    1746 days ago
  • MAGGIE101857
    It's good to hear that you have a roof over your head again; even better that there is a feeling of peacefulness there. Mother Nature can be cruel and it takes a long time to heal from not only the physical battering and loss of possessions, but the emotional battering as well. Take this time to heal yourself; you may find you don't want to rebuild? emoticon
    1746 days ago
    On to the next Chapter of your life!! I'm one of the younger people in my condo complex and the peacefulness here is so welcome at the end of the day!

    Enjoy all the good things that come your way; you deserve every one of them!!
    1746 days ago
    I hope that things look up and soon.
    1746 days ago
    Susie said it so well Yvonne.......with everything you've been though it's time to put you stamp on your home.
    I am so happy things are finally turning around for you.
    Take care and let us know how you're getting on
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    1746 days ago
    So glad you have finally got a roof over your head . I reckon you have earned the right to paint your home as you like it xxx
    Take Care and keep us posted ... Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1746 days ago
    I am so happy for you when I first got separated from my husband 9-10 years ago and I was moving from place to place with all my belongings not being returned at that time, it hit me really hard - not that my issue was bigger than yours having a place to call home and getting some of my things back and letting go of those that I knew I would never get back and accepting that.

    This was when I felt that I got my life back and from there I built it back up and managed to have nicer things so that was my big accomplishment. I think this is what you needed all along to finally feel that I have lifted yourself back up from Rock Bottom. emoticon

    I am so happy you are on your way it must feel amazing and I can just feel that experience with and for you. emoticon

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    1746 days ago
    Glad to see that you have found a place. Have been thinking about you and want you to know that you are in my thoughts.
    1746 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon glad you have a roof over your head (and its not the car roof)

    I'm glad you can blend and dehydrate your raw foods.
    1746 days ago
    I just looked at your feed. I can't imagine that you were functional with a blood sugar reading as high as that indicates.

    I feel that getting back to your eating plan will help clear out the cobwebs, and help you with your decision making.

    I hope that having your new place will help you with your stress levels.

    Enjoy your new, peaceful surroundings.

    1746 days ago
    Oh, I'm so glad you now have a place to lay your head! It makes a world of difference when we human's just have our own beds to sleep in! I hope you will continue to find peace and tranquility--you sure deserve it! I can't imagine what it's like to be paying on two places like that--but maybe in time some answers will come that will make the road easier for you. We all love you and are still routing for you and this sounds like it will be something good in your life. Lay your head down in peace now, and enjoy your new place. It's been a long deserve a rest.
    1746 days ago
    I'm glad that you have a place. What are you doing for income? You're in my prayers. Love you
    1746 days ago
    Glad you found a place and I hope it gives you comfort and eases stress.
    You have been through so much because of Sandy.

    Stay Strong!

    1746 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
    awesome new start!!!................

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    1746 days ago
    Raspberry or not you have a place that's yours and from the sound a nice peaceful one. Yes it is time to settle in and move forward. Enjoy and take care.
    Hugs and love
    1746 days ago
    I guess this is a happy/sad situation for you. Living in a Senior development isn't so bad. At least you saved some of your favorite items. That's good.
    If you feel that you want to paint your walls raspberry, go right ahead! You can do whatever you wish in your new home.
    Good luck to you.

    1746 days ago
    at least there's a place to call home.
    1746 days ago
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