Now that I see that our rebuilding efforts are going no where I bit the bullet and recently moved into a small condo unit in a Senior development. It is very small, only 975 square feet. It is going to be very hard to carry the expenses on 2 houses but I have no choice. The timeline is too far out of when I will be able to get back in.
My town is still battling FEMA's new elevation maps. They do not want to issue building permits till it gets resolved. Right now the maps say I have to 11 feet above sea level. I can't climb those many stairs so I will wait. They are estimating about6 more months to resolve, then the house will have to be elevated, and then the rebuilding can start. The estimated time is about 24 months before I can get back.
If I want to rebuild now, I can but it must be at the highest level of the flood maps. I'll wait to see how it pays out because to raise my house to 11 feet above sea level will cost over $100,000 which I don't have. Then I have the cost of the rebuilding of the actual house.
So even though Hurricane Sandy is long gone, 6 months, for me ( and others-about 100,000 houses) it is not.
Lost almost everything but thank God I was able to get a lot of my clothes out that was above the flood waters. Wish I could have saved my kitchen stuff, dishes, pots, and pans, etc. but that all was contaminated. I lost my Magic Bullet but was able to catch a sale for a new one for $39.00. I did get my heavy duty blender out and dehydrator but my food processor was lost. Those items are the most important ones for my Raw eating plan.
I just finished the painting of the house and decided to do entirely different colors. I loved the colors of my old house. The living room and hallway was a beautiful raspberry that went perfectly with the colors in my living room set. It was an old English floral pattern with lots of shades of green and shades of raspberry so it pulled in all of the colors. My kitchen was a shade of teal and one wall of the living room backed up to the kitchen but the colors actually worked. My family thought I was nuts to choose those colors till they saw the finished rooms.
However they begged me not to paint the living room raspberry again since this condo is so much smaller than my house. It would not be able to carry such a dramatic color and darker colors would make the living room even smaller.
I really wanted the raspberry again but then I decided that I didn't want anything to remind me of the old house so I painted the living room honey beige which is more gold in color, the kitchen is now peach, and my bedroom is a really pretty shade of green (like eucalyptus) and it is very calming.
Not sure if the changing of the color choices have made the difference, by not reminding me of my destroyed home, but I am actually feeling a lot better than I have in a long time. I know moving here improved my mental well being because I know have a place to hang my clothes, my own bed to sleep in, and I can start to rebuild my life. It was really hard for me to accept the kindness of my friends and family and impose on their lives for the time I did stay at their homes. Six plus months is a long time. Still need to go to counseling but at least I am looking at life a little more positive.
I never thought I would end up in a Senior Development this young at 58 but I really love the peacefulness here. I always planned on retiring in one but the rents are actually cheaper here and I now have a garage and they have 2 beautiful pools here. Right now I need the tranquility to heal. I am so stressed out and my brain is fried. I can't concentrate on anything and I can't make decisions (which is probably why I didn't stick to my guns and paint my living room or even anything raspberry?