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A letter to my mom.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Dear Mom,
I have been thinking about this since before Mother's day. I would give much to be able to get a stamp that would send a letter all the way to you. I wish even more that I could get one back. I have been a mother much longer than you mothered me on this earth. But I would still give you credit for teaching me so much that was good.

I feel that you can check in on our lives and I hope that it makes you happy. Thanks for giving me a good foundation to build this family. The kids are doing awesome.

My daughter is struggling a bit. But, I really think that is just being 13. I pray so. I pray for guidance with her and of course for her brothers too.

When I look at them and see them becoming competent adults I am amazed by their intelligence, and confidence.

I wonder what is inside me that I could be the foundation for that. I am struggling to shake the feelings of inadequacy. I frequently feel like you knew all the answers but, took the book with you. Somehow I have managed to get to adulthood and find if I talk to people that they don't know all the answers any more than I do.

I want to be more confident and self assured. I want to feel good. I don't say to myself what I would say to others. I need to be kinder. I will try to imagine if you could sit beside me that you would tell me it is OK. I am OK. I will be OK.

When I look around I know that my life is blessed. I will try to remember you and see all the good instead of focusing on my struggle.

Thanks Mom...Love you.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MKAMEL11 8/26/2013 7:32PM

    I lost my mom when I was 14. It's been 12 years, and I still miss her and think so much about her, specially now that I am a mother myself. I also hope she's watching over us, and is proud of me and the person I'm turning out to be.
Anyway, I loved your post.

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JUSTYNA7 5/17/2013 6:13PM

    Such a nice way to remember your Mom..

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NANCY- 5/15/2013 8:09AM

    What a lovely letter. Mothers are wonderful and so resourceful by doing the best they can with what they know and have.

Being 13 is tough, I remember feeling unloved even though I was loved. Perhaps finding an interest to share together.... be it a game like Scrabble or a volunteering for a cause dear to your hearts... What are her dreams, interests. What are yours. A common thread can open up new doorways.


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MNABOY 5/14/2013 10:50PM

    Thanks for sharing a very tender moment. The 13 year old stage is when they spend a year with the devil. There is an end to the session if both live through it!

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/14/2013 10:31PM

    That was emoticon !!

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