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A letter to my mom.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Dear Mom,
I have been thinking about this since before Mother's day. I would give much to be able to get a stamp that would send a letter all the way to you. I wish even more that I could get one back. I have been a mother much longer than you mothered me on this earth. But I would still give you credit for teaching me so much that was good.

I feel that you can check in on our lives and I hope that it makes you happy. Thanks for giving me a good foundation to build this family. The kids are doing awesome.

My daughter is struggling a bit. But, I really think that is just being 13. I pray so. I pray for guidance with her and of course for her brothers too.

When I look at them and see them becoming competent adults I am amazed by their intelligence, and confidence.

I wonder what is inside me that I could be the foundation for that. I am struggling to shake the feelings of inadequacy. I frequently feel like you knew all the answers but, took the book with you. Somehow I have managed to get to adulthood and find if I talk to people that they don't know all the answers any more than I do.

I want to be more confident and self assured. I want to feel good. I don't say to myself what I would say to others. I need to be kinder. I will try to imagine if you could sit beside me that you would tell me it is OK. I am OK. I will be OK.

When I look around I know that my life is blessed. I will try to remember you and see all the good instead of focusing on my struggle.

Thanks Mom...Love you.
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  • MKAMEL11
    I lost my mom when I was 14. It's been 12 years, and I still miss her and think so much about her, specially now that I am a mother myself. I also hope she's watching over us, and is proud of me and the person I'm turning out to be.
    Anyway, I loved your post.
    1574 days ago
    Such a nice way to remember your Mom..
    1675 days ago
  • NANCY-
    What a lovely letter. Mothers are wonderful and so resourceful by doing the best they can with what they know and have.

    Being 13 is tough, I remember feeling unloved even though I was loved. Perhaps finding an interest to share together.... be it a game like Scrabble or a volunteering for a cause dear to your hearts... What are her dreams, interests. What are yours. A common thread can open up new doorways.


    1678 days ago
    Thanks for sharing a very tender moment. The 13 year old stage is when they spend a year with the devil. There is an end to the session if both live through it!
    1678 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    That was emoticon !!
    1678 days ago
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