Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Today I celebrate some very unofficial anniversaries. The first is with my dear bf. Our relationship started out kind of rocky, kind of gray and ambiguous (as a lot of college relationships tend to do...) so while there was kind of a day he asked me to be exclusive there were a couple bumps in the road around then that I don't like to reminisce on so we mark today with the happy day SIX years ago when we first said I love you to each other...
*sigh* I know, super sappy. We've been through a lot together already, sickness and health, road trips, long-distance and living together; he is my best friend and for most part I'm really content with where we are. We've even lost a total of 35 lbs together! (which, side rant, SOOO frustrating that guys' metabolize so differently. I feel like I'm struggling just to maintain my measly 10lb loss and he barely works out but just in general because we've been eating healthier he's lost 25lbs!) So today, while I'm not expecting anything (we normally don't make a big deal about it) as we get further in our relationship I kind of hope for more. I have PT this evening so maybe he'll have dinner waiting for me when I get home :)
My second unofficial anniversary is my "get fit journey." I started Jillian Michael's Body Revolution about a year ago in an attempt to jumpstart my fitness (and get in shape for my trip to Belize!). You can find my "before" picture in my photos from May 2012 (yuck!) but I really wanted to see a "before" and "after" from her program. I stuck to her program pretty well for the first couple months (until our trip) but I didn't really lose weight because I wasn't following her meal plan, nor Sparking. I ended up getting sick and losing weight upon coming back from vacation, so admittedly, I wanted to keep that weight off (and keep going!) but do it the HEALTHY way. So I guess the second part of my journey really begins in August after I was healthy again, restarted her program, and actually Sparked. Anyways, I think of May as my anniversary of when it "clicked" that I really wanted to do something about my body and health.
I had a bad day yesterday, bingeing, and it showed on the scale. But I just have to remind myself I am not the same as my "before" picture a year ago. I need to use this anniversary to regain my Spark and keep going. I am tempted to "throw" this week away (within reason, especially after yesterday) because I know this weekend is going to be bad too, but then I think of all the things I have coming up that I want to look good for, Memorial day weekend, my birthday, a summer wedding, and summer in general
I need to remind myself that every decision I make, every bit of a food can make a difference. Help me Spark!