Tuesday, May 14, 2013
I'm going to be 30 on Aug 21 this year and I've gained a lot of the 100 lbs I lost 5 years ago back. It's so hard to keep the weight off... but mixing in a horrible marriage, having a child, a ton of stress of all kinds... definitely doesn't help.
So here's my thing... I've moved on. In my personal life, I dumped the asshole and found a good man... one who's supportive to me and my children... in every way. He's lost about 80 lbs himself... and in order to fully support him and his goals, I need to keep up on mine. Together we want to raise our family healthy. I need to start with myself first before I can help.
So if I moved on personally... I must move on in every way. So I've deleted the past... not only throwing everything away from my previous relationships... but the simple stuff on here too. All my old goals and blogs.... gone. I've resetted everything... starting today.
I've been wanting to lose this weight and get healthy for a while now... and I keep saying "I'm going to do this" but I don't. This morning I woke up at 630am with the desire to go to the gym... and even though I'm not able to get there today, I still have the desire to be active. I started with pulling the water bottle out... because really... that's where I need to start. If I can discipline myself on the water again, I will have a good start to continue.
My boyfriend and I moved into our first place together a couple weeks ago... and while going through my clothes I noticed that not many of my cute clothes are that far away... maybe 30-50 lbs. So my first goal is 30 lbs by my 30th birthday. That's 10 weeks from tomorrow.... so yea... 3 lbs a week will be a tough goal, but one thing I know from my past of being a health counselor and helping others lose a massive amount of weight, that the majority of weight comes off in the beginning providing I stay disciplined.
With 5 kids between the both of us... ages 10, 8, and 3 year old girls... and two 2 year old boys... I'm sure I can do enough active things to get in a workout.
So here I am... giving into myself... this isn't Day 1 again... this is Day 1. The past is in the past... time to apply it.