Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Since I wrote my last blog and reading all the advice and encouragement from everyone, I decided I needed to figure out what was really causing me to be so down . It was just a little of what I said, but I thought long and hard about when I started to get depressed and I found my answer, the whole deal is about my oldest grandson. He met this girl or I should say women. Tyler will be 20 June 1 , his new g-friend is 32. Well the age difference doesn't bother me . It was other things ,that unfolded. They moved into together, but she lives with her mother. neither one of them have a job, I heard her ask Tyler if he was going with her to Michigan to see the girls. When his grandfather on his dad's side passed away I pick them up to meet his Dad., and they were talking about getting married. I ask him how long has he known her? A week, 2, a month? He said 3 months , I didn't believe him, because we were always real close and he always told me about all his girl friends and I have never heard of her. Anyway he said he didn't care what I said I couldn't stop him from marring her. A few days latter He text his sister late at night told her he had to take her to hospital, by ambulance and needed a ride home. I ask her what was wrong with her she said something was twisted down there. I asked a birth control device? She said no, mamaw she is pregnant. That is why they want to get married fast. And about the kids she already has, she had triplets , one died and the others are still in hospital in Michigan. My thoughts is why ? If she has been here for at least 3 months, why are they still in hospital, and why are you here? I know in my heart if she is pregnant , it is not Tyler. She was planning a big wedding , dress tuxes , bride mates etc. I asked Kelsey where where they getting married at, she said at her Mom's. They live in a trailer park and believe me it is 2 steps above being a dump. No place for a wedding , and I would like to know where are they going to get money for it. Anyway there is just allot of things not right. Tyler hasn't talked to me since and that hurts because we were always so close. Anyway I talked to his mom , she told me to quit worrying about it because the way he is he would probably be with some else in a few weeks and if not, what would be will be. He has to learn for his self. Which is true If I protest he will do it for spite. It is hard when you want to protect them, but they have to learn from their own mistakes. I quit worrying about it and I know he will call me one day. I got back to me. My hubby took me to Harrah's in N.C. Saturday night to see Josh Turner in concert ,we had a great time. I heard from all kid's Mother's Day ,except one, he doesn't even call me on my birthday. My youngest came up for awhile, brought me a card and flowers, my daughter called me and sent my some flowers, and my oldest one called. So I had a great day. When I weighed Friday I had lost a pound. So I am moving forward, and putting things behind me and I am not going to worry about things I can't change.