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Day 1....once again and for the last time!!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

WOW!! I almost can't believe that I just wrote that title. I really, REALLY want to mean it. I do mean it. Here goes the LAST time I do day 1. After this, it is just going to have to keep going. The picture is of my best friend and I last week at Universal Sudios Hollywood with "Lucy" and looking at myself in that picture is a wake up call.

My struggles with my weight have been long chronicled on my blog over the past 2 years. The unfortunate part is that I have struggled with my weight since I was about 20 and that is not logged in or blogged in anywhere other than pictures and my own mind. I could list all of the things that have stood in my way between being a healthy, thin person and yet the only thing I need to really put on that list is ME.

I am the reason for the weight issues I have and the struggle daily to keep a healthy body image and to fight against eating what I think tastes good and what actually is good for me. It is a lot easier for me to sit down than to push myself and walk or work out.

Yesterday I came back from a week long vacation in the place I miss the most. I grew up in San Diego and I start missing it each and every January or February while I wait for spring to arrive. Who would have known that it would take until MAY for spring this year? So we had a great time and I ate at some of my favorite places and some of my new favorite places and I put in a good 5 miles on my feet every day and now I am back home and serious.

This morning started with a trip to the dentist followed by my first trip ever to the personal trainer. It was a great visit and I learned a lot but I couldn't even make it past the 3 circuits I was doing to the cardio portion. It was REALLY tough for me and I realized how totally out of shape I was. It was a REAL eye opener and that is not to mention my measurements and my weight...EEESH!!

I am really tired of trying over and over. I have to get on the wagon, stay on the wagon and get going! Going backwards isn't an option anymore. I don't want to feel like hell anymore from doing a few basic exercises. That is wrong. Yes, I am getting older but I sure as hell am not dead yet and hopefully I won't be any time soon.

So this is it...its going to happen now. I need to start caring instead of letting things happen, allowing things to happen to my body that are not good for it.

I look back at two years ago. What I looked like and how I felt and I realize I need to get back to that place and beyond. That is me. The woman who left San Diego in 1992 was a fit, healthy person who had fought hard to be that way. I need to get back to that person. This is the time!!

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  • CARANN56
    Wow - I just wrote a similar blog a week ago!! My whole problem is time to log my food. But with some cutbacks at work I should be having more available time. When I log my food it is always an eyeopener

    We CAN do it!! and we WILL do this!!!

    Here's to us girlfriend - let's get after it!!

    I'll be checking in on you! emoticon
    1672 days ago
    Just know that you can do it!!!! emoticon
    1673 days ago
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