Monday, May 13, 2013
Today I am working on getting my brain back to healthy. I was so close to my 5% weight loss goal that the last two weeks have been spent diligently following the Weight Watchers plan. But now that I have reached the 5% and moved on to a 10% goal, I have another 13 pounds to lose before reaching it.
My diet is going just fine and there is nothing I need to do to make it better. I am eating the right amounts without much effort. I do not feel hungry or snacky anymore. If I am hungry then I add two eggs to my afternoon snack and end up eating dinner about an hour later than I would've otherwise because those to eggs are so satisfying. I am losing the perfect amount: 1.5-2 pounds per week on average. I only need to maintain what I am doing for now.
But because of the last two weeks of uber-focus, I have started to become uptight about the diet. I didn't feel good about reaching my 5% goal. I lost 15 pounds and all I could think was how much farther I had to go and how it took me a few months just to get to this point. I was actually quite forlorn and mopey yesterday.
I saw the failure of my diet in sight because it was starting to stress me out. The stakes had become too high and the ultimate goal to unreachable.
But today I made a mental change. I cannot actively work on my diet because it needs no current tweaking. I need to focus on my exercise again, which I have been doing, but the last two weeks wasn't where my head was focused. I CAN adjust my exercise. I can get that feeling of pushing my limits and expanding my abilities in exercise that I can't get right now in my already good diet. Basically, while I'm waiting for next week's weigh-in, and the week after, and the week after that, I can see results elsewhere: in how many push-ups I can do or in how much better my intermediate Pilates are getting.
I can also focus on non-diet related life things. I am ready to start looking for a job in Virginia now that baby is almost 8-months old. Our apartment is still not completely decorated and although we cannot afford the picture frames and such for what I have planned until we have acquired a bed and a table, I can start looking up ideas on exactly what I want to do and how to do it. I have plenty of things to do that I have been holding out on until I could get my diet under control and on track.
So today I have made a mental change to be less stressed about my successful diet. When I get within 2 pounds of that 10% goal then I will focus on it again like I did the last two weeks. Then I will go back to being chill.
I realize that if I am to succeed at losing all my weight and doing it permanently then I have to cycle through my diet. I have to create cycles of chill and focused.
I will succeed.