Sunday, May 12, 2013
i was just sitting and eating bit of leftover eggs from brunch this morning, and it gave me a vivid flashback of a meal that i ate, hungover, the morning after my bday (aka the day before i started this lifestyle change). so i decided to give a public glimpse into the binge meals that i used to eat in private:
the morning after my 25th birthday:
2 sausage egg mcmuffins (i literally dont even like these at all...i just wanted to eat junk)
a cold egg white omelette with prosciutto and hash browns (i HATED this omelette, and it was not the one that i ordered, but i had it at my house and i was going to eat it)
a cheeseburger (i dont even eat cheeseburgers, but again...just wanted junk)
that meal was seriously eye - opening for me, and is why i am where i am now. i realized that i had no interest in eating all of these things, but that i was literally forcing myself to indulge.
some other common meals:
2 jimmy johns subs with two bags of chips
a full sub and a full packed salad, with a bag of chips and bread, from a local restaurant
two full subs and two bags of chips (from that same restaurant)
a salad, pizza bread, and a sub, from a different local restaurant (i would alternate frequently between these two restaurants)
you get the point. i ALWAYS ordered for two. the thought of ordering only enough food for one person made me feel hungry just thinking it. and these are all just ONE meal (usually lunch). i wouldve still had a full breakfast and dinner. and they were ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS eaten in private.
it is kind of unfathomable now, but it was not that long ago...(also these places must be wondering where i disappeared to haha, i was such a loyal customer!!)
it makes me sad for how i was, and excited for who i am becoming. oh, yea...and i threw away those leftover cold eggs this morning, because i realized i didnt like them -- and i didnt have to force myself to eat them.