Sunday, May 12, 2013
So I rekindled my efforts to lose weight about 3 months ago. I had been taking a time out for a couple of reasons, not the least of which was a pregnancy and miscarriage. :( Sadness. I just didn't feel that I could face losing weight. I seemed like too daunting of a task. And if anyone knows me, then if I am not losing, I am gaining. It takes willful effort of eating right AND exercising for me to reduce, and I wasn't really doing either. My first goal was just to stop gaining. I had to take a nutrition class as part of my program of study, and the instructor, who is a registered dietician and nutritionist said that if you can't lose weight, a good way to start is simply to focus on not gaining. That rang true for me, and instead of cutting back by too many calories I just targeted eating enough to maintain. It was the first step.
I think the second good step was to decide to set a goal I normally would not have. To lose 50 pounds in about a year. In the past, I have always made the goal to lose EVERYTHING that I need to in that time. ( Im pushing on needing to lose 90 lbs.) So I set the goal, and Spark set my calorie range. I get to eat up to about 1800 cals a day, which is not in the least bit painful. In fact, it is quite satisfying.
Sometimes I feel that I am not losing fast enough, but have to remind myself that fast fat comes back as quick as it leaves. I have never tried the slow and steady approach, so I figured that it will be my key.. since it is the only thing I have not tried yet!
I know that 12 pounds lost is not the 20-30 I would have needed to be happy in the past, but I'm actually quite pleased with it. It feels like a different 12 pounds lost. Like it means more since it did not cause me hunger, distress and anguish to accomplish. I have not been perfect with my calorie targeting, but am doing well MOST days. If I am ever hit with hunger, or the "desperate munchies" then I let myself go over my goal by about 500 calories, which would land me at about the number of calories to maintain. Nothing gained is good :)
I guess my mentality is now not to lose it fast, but rather just keep on.. slow and steady, and not gain on those days I feel like taking a break. This has taken the guilt out of days I previously would count as a mess up. The guilt over these days tries to creep in, but more and more I reinforce with myself that there is no need to feel guilt. It goes a long way in preventing the "I messed up, now I will eat everything" binging.
So there we have it. And here's to a slow year of weight loss :)