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Long Overdue Update


Sunday, May 12, 2013

So, for those of you who can recall, oh so long ago (at least that's how it seems to me) that I had set a few goals for the month of April. I started off strong that first week, struggled through the second week, and began what I can only describe as "limping along" for the first part of the third, then getting a job out of nowhere and that was the end of any goals I ever did have!

I know where I lost momentum. I just don't know why. Where did my motivation go? Where did that drive go? I seriously don't know. Am I happy being only halfway to my goal? (No.) Am I content with being a size 14/16 instead of a size 18/20? (No.) Do I like having a Large t-shirt instead of an XL/XXL? (No.) Do I like feeling sluggish and tired because of junky, processed, nutritional wasteland-type foods? (No.) So, what's the dealio, yo? Why do I seem to want to stay this way instead of improving? I don't have an answer for that.

Last week was the end of my classes for the semester. Just in the two weeks that my job and classes overlapped, I have to say: I don't know how people do it. I don't know how people work at a job 8/+ hours a day and then go to classes, too. And fulfill responsibilities at home. I had so little time for homework. I spent an entire day, from the moment I woke up, to the moment I went to bed (waaaaaaaaaay past my bedtime, too) working on my final project for PhotoShop. It turned out nice and everyone had nice things to say about it. I got a 95/100 on it. I'm not disappointed with that grade. I knew I wouldn't get 100pts on it because I didn't do a "compilation" background. I tried, but the vision in my head was not translating to the canvas. So, I took a background, did some modifications on it to better suit my needs, and went with that. I think it turned out better than anything I could have pieced together. Even if it is plagiarism. Or copyright infringement. Whatever. That's all this class has ever been. I would post a completed copy of my project for ya'll to see, but the canvas size was soooooo huge (it was meant to be poster-sized) that I couldn't save it as a .jpeg without crashing my computer. My final product's size (in .psd format) is 1.21gb. Huge. I did, however, get an A in the class overall. So, that's just fine with me.

My stats final... didn't go too well. Thanks to my job and working outrageously huge amounts of hours, I was left with very little time to study. By the time I'd get home from work and sit down to do some homework/studying, I'd be so exhausted I'd fall asleep with my calculator in my lap and my computer on. And he saved the hardest chapter for last: probabilities. I remember them from my last attempt at taking stats. They were hard. And a concept I couldn't easily grasp. And still couldn't by the time our test came around. Sadly, out of the 25 questions on the test, about 18 of them were probability questions from that chapter. The rest were from other chapters throughout the semester. Unfortunately, I don't know my grade from that test or that class yet. At my estimation, the best I could have done is a mid-C. At least I passed it, but the reality is, I needed to also do well in it. It was a class the admissions folks for my Master's Program are going to look at and factor in. :-(

So, let me tell you about this job. It's a DSS position (dietary services supervisor) at a skilled nursing facility. The kitchen there has been long neglected. There are issues up the yin-yang that need to be fixed. And that's where I come in. I oversee the kitchen and dietary doings. So, I've been working on the kitchen and getting it up to code as far as equipment, sanitation training for employees, emergency supplies, etc. Its a lot of work and very long days. I also screen new admits and update their charts regarding their nutrition status. That part involves a lot of paperwork. And a lot of time. It's one of those things that requires a lot of little details in addition to the big picture. I'm glad I can say I'm employed again. I'm glad I can say I am using some part of my schooling, finally... all those 5am days, 4+ hours on public transportation, countless cups of coffee, training... finally paid off. I still feel like I'm learning as I go, and that will possibly always be the case, but I'm glad to be where I am. Now I just need my own car to make life a bit easier.

I'm not sure what my immediate future is going to hold with all these changes and revelations. I still hope to join ballet in the fall. I'd like to get a gym membership to take boxing classes at a local gym. I hope I can still take classes and continue working toward my "higherest" education. Maybe once I've let myself settle into the position over summer, I can be better equipped to integrate class work with my work schedule.

Anyhow, I'm sorry to have dropped off the radar, but now you know why. I am keeping up with you all, slowly and silently. I read your blogs and updates. I just haven't always had the time to drop ya'll a line to let you know I'm still here.

And since it's Mother's Day...

Happy Mother's Day!

Hmmm... I need a new pic! This was like... 3 years ago.
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ARCHIMEDESII 5/13/2013 12:34PM

    Juggling a job and full time class schedule isn't easy. It's something I did years ago and wonder how I made it. But you know, it's just a matter of learning how to budget your time. The problem is that with the new job (WOO HOO) and your class schedule over lapping, that really didn't give you time to do both. It had to be one or the other and the job was more imporant than your stats class.

Next semester will be better because you'll be settled into your new job. You did A LOT these last few weeks. So, don't get down on yourself because some things seemed to slip through the cracks. There really is only so much you can do. You have to set priorities and your first priority was getting that facility back up to code. I'm thrilled that you're working ! I started my second week today. Last week started out slowly, but by the end of the week I was working on some online training modules. Can't proceed until I passed those training modules. They were BORING. but they are done. So, once I get the all clear, I'll be pretty much ready to officially start my job. The last week, I've been doing what I can to be productive. I like it here. I'm getting used to having my morning cup or two or three of tea ! LOL !!!

Oh and since you are in school, have you checked out the school's gym facilities ? What sorts of classes are they offering ? You're paying good money for tuition and services, you might as well take advantage of them. Check out their gym and class schedule. You may find a boxing class you like there. That's one way to fit in a workout.

And I can't spark during the day too much either. I do have to make it look like I'm doing something around here. ;)



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RSTM99 5/13/2013 10:34AM

    Keep at it! There are times when everything seems to be on your plate and you get through, and then every now and then there's a little lull and the tendency is for most to fill it b/c we are so used to be SO busy. So, when you lull comes (hopefully soon as we all need one, even a short one), enjoy the lull :) Awareness and desire to get the fitness and nutrition into your new work routine will come. Keep it on your radar and you'll know what to do. GREAT job finishing your semester off - now a moment to breath that in :))!

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MARIAJESTRADA 5/12/2013 11:48PM

    Limping along is still moving forward! Keep at it! (Trust me; you don't want to slide backwards like somebody. Ahem.

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 5/12/2013 5:44PM

    Good to hear from you...I missed you but I figured this was what was happening! I, too, do not know how people do it...and if you add kids, etc...OMG! I commend your motivation and think you did great...and given it was statistics...I would be glad I got a C and passed, too!
I hope the job brings you satisfaction and goes well! But, I really hope you get a car to make your life easier!
I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
Love you!
Hugs,
Mary

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 5/12/2013 5:44PM

    Good to hear from you...I missed you but I figured this was what was happening! I, too, do not know how people do it...and if you add kids, etc...OMG! I commend your motivation and think you did great...and given it was statistics...I would be glad I got a C and passed, too!
I hope the job brings you satisfaction and goes well! But, I really hope you get a car to make your life easier!
I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
Love you!
Hugs,
Mary

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HAWAIIANMAMMA 5/12/2013 1:33PM

    You are kickin butt, ma'am. You successfully completed a semester, you found a job that utilizes your training (that's huge) and you've kept sight of your fitness goals, even if they've moved down your list of priorities. Do you have plans for the summer aside from working? I would suggest taking the time to list all the things you will have or want to have in your life and prioritizing them. Try to be realistic. Often we fail to meet our goals bc we were unrealistic when figuring the time and commitment required to reach them * with everything else in our lives*. And it sounds like you have a lot that you want to do. If you ever want someone to talk to or bounce ideas off of, you know how to reach me. But first and foremost, recognize that this was a SUCCESSFUL semester. YOU were successful. Congratulations!

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SLIMMERJESSE 5/12/2013 1:32PM

    I've wondered how you're doing. Ever since having pneumonia in March, I've totally not cared about eating. I still exercise a lot, but have lost my mojo
regarding eating. Not sure where/how this will end up. Take care;
good to hear from you.

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