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When will I actually figure this weight loss thing out?

Sunday, May 12, 2013

I am baffled. I am really trying to understand why I continue to backslide. I don't like how I look. I hate how my clothes fit. I am bummed that I often don't have enough energy for the day. Yet I continue to sabotage my efforts. I'll have enthusiasm for a couple of days, and then fall back into bad habits. Why do I stop myself from succeeding?

Each time I tell myself it's going to be different. This time I'm going to stick with it. And then I stop tracking and start eating. I make up excuses for not working out. I ignore healthy guidelines. I simply blow through it, all the time hating myself for not committing again. It's so frustrating. I was in WW for 6 YEARS. Never hit my goal. Would get close, and then fall off the wagon and eat my way back to almost the starting point.

I have a conference in a week where I am traveling with a colleague who is lovely and thin. I'm already dreading the "oh my god, I'm such a fat cow" thoughts that will sneak in all through the week as I stand next to her skinny, fit body. A month ago I told myself, that I'd focus on losing weight and building habits so that this time wouldn't feel so bad. And yet, here we are 7 days away, and I am no further along in taking care of me.

I appreciate the time to vent here. Sometimes just saying it out loud helps me own the behavior and thinking. But I'd sure love some ideas on how I can get past this 2 steps forward, one step back effort I'm making...
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    I hear you! I've been there sooo much! I try not focus on how much I've fallen. Focus on your victories. Celebrate those. I *know* its SO incredibly easy to be hard on ourselves esp when we put soo much effort into doing whats right and then, BOOM, sabatoge our efforts.....BUT, we seem to forget that we are TRYING, and we aren't giving up. We are persisting. We are determined. WE are going to get this!!!! :) emoticon emoticon
    1746 days ago
    The good news?... you can start over every day. Perhaps focus on maintaining, then go from there. Small steps...small victories. Good luck!
    1746 days ago
  • THOMS1
    Well I looked at your food tracker and it seems like your eating more sugar and carbs than healthy food. I would start paying attention to that. I try to eat in the middle of my carbs like my low is 135 and my high is 252 so I try to eat in between those two numbers also try to get away from the sugary things like the cereal. You will have a lot more energy if you start eating more whole wheat and more fruits and veggies. I also have better luck when I track my nutrition and weigh and measure my food everyday. I hope this helps you. I know it is hard and there are so many other foods I would rather eat but really, if you want to be healthy, slim down and feel better that is what you have to do. I wish you much success. emoticon
    1746 days ago
  • RFJSJ50
    I'm guilty of the same behavior, too BUT I am feeling a change as I move away from the "losing weight" mode into "creating a healthier life" mode. I'm learning to focus on my food intake and exercise on a weekly basis rather than on a daily basis and it is really helping. I have off days, really OFF, but it usually evens out weekly. That helps - it might not have been the fantastic week I planned in my mind but it usually hasn't been a failure week either. Check out the reports section if you haven't. It's helping me put this journey in focus.
    1746 days ago
    I'm in the same boat as you. I do the same thing. I have learned to take it one step at a time. Old habits are very hard to break!!! Keep on trying!! Together we can not fail!!! emoticon
    1746 days ago
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