Sunday, May 12, 2013
The days leading up to this celebration of motherhood have been a hard heavy dose of feeling lonely, nothing to celebrate type feelings. I have no children, my Mom, Grandmothers and Great-Grandmother are with Jesus now and so is Auntie-spending her first Mother's Day in heaven-I just miss them all. I watched folks flock the Hallmark store, buying the gifts and candy, flower delivery going on all over. I was given two roses yesterday-one from the barber shop and one when I was at the skilled trades seminar. The sheer thoughtfulness of honoring all women was beautiful.
I miss my Mom-more than words can describe. I know she would want only the best for me. I know she would be proud of me and I talk to her in my mind just about everyday. I may see something or remember one of her little funny sayings and laugh to myself or laugh outloud. My Mom was my go to person, helping me navigate through life. I sure can use her words of wisdom now as I go through this change of life hormonally. I remember her life lessons fondly, wipe tears from my eyes because God truly did answer my prayers and healed her, and rejoice evermore that I carry her in my heart, I will continue to make her proud and one day, I will see her again!