To celebrate my SparkFriends and those who have come alongside me
Sunday, May 12, 2013
I just wanted to take a moment to celebrate each and every one of you who have taken the time to come alongside me during this difficult time in my life.
I cannot tell you what this means to me.
I suffer from social phobia and am a near recluse. One of my Spark goals is to overcome this disabling fear of being in the public eye and of having relationships with people.
When I found the "Where are YOU walking to?" Spark group, it was literally as though someone threw me a lifesaver. For the first time I am getting out in the sunshine and walking at least three times each week. It is only on my street, but it is outside. I haven't done this in 12 years.
I have a gym membership, but it became difficult to keep the schedule because of lack of sleep. The only time I felt comfortable going to the gym was in the wee hours of the morning when no one was there. I might see one person when I was coming or going, but for the most part, I could exercise by myself without anyone seeing me...except the cameras of course.
And this is the hardest thing I've ever admitted online.
SO thank you to you all. You are amazing people who give me courage and hope that I can indeed beat this thing and get my life back.
Glad you are feeling better about yourself. One step at a time - I have a mild case of social phobia. I try to make a date with at least one friend to go out at least once a month. So we'll go to plays, or openings of events. This month, I am going to call her and suggest we go to a premiere of local movie. It's tough because I am quite happy being at home, exercising either at the gym or on the road by myself and chaufeuring my son around. 1595 days ago