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Mother's Day

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Mother's Day has for the most part have been very hard days for me. I thought I never had a mother who loved me, I thought I never had a mother who cared for me. I thought I never had a mother who protected me, I thought I never had a mother who was there for me.

This year, I was shown through meditation that Mother Mary has been there always for me. That she has held me throughout every torture and pain I suffered as a child. She was holding my body as my own earth mother was hurting me. Mother Mary was crying for me when I was suffering and feeling so alone and scared. I really thought I was all alone with no one to help me.

In meditation, Sweet Mother Mary showed me that she is my real mother, that I even tho I was born through darkness that she was holding me in the light. Even tho I was born through evil, she was holding me through pure love and light.

I thought I let go of my mother last year, but more stuff came up these past months that brought deep sadness not looking forward to tomorrow. Mother's Day. I still do love and forgive my earth mother.....

BUT NOW I CAN TAKE MY HEAVENLY MOTHER INTO MY HEART AND SOUL instead of what I thought was alone my whole childhood. Mother Mary and the angels were always there for me and I did not know it. They were there for me every step of the way, holding my hand spiritually.

Now, I know Mother Mary is everyone's Mother, so for those who do not have a good relationship with their earthly mother or those especially who were abused by their earthly mother, can hopefully see and feel the love that Mother Mary, St Mary or however you want to call her does not matter. Just feel her love, take her into your heart and be free of all the pain of the past. Not forgetting what was done but to not let it hurt you any longer.

She told me so much, I felt so much and can't put it all into words. I just hope you can feel her love, take her into your heart as well. Celebrate that she is the Mother of all!!!

It even helps me to love myself so much more. To accept what happened to me for a reason and that I am a GREAT MOTHER!! Especially of what I came out of.

It is like a Diamond starting from dirt, having to go through a process and change but the end result was a diamond that can cut through almost anything in the world. So strong and beautiful.

I am strong and beautiful. What a gift to myself this Mother's Day

SO today I BLESS all you mothers with PURE LOVE AND LIGHT!!!! from my heart to yours. I hope I made your day a little brighter

This is my favorite Picture of Mother Mary! Look at her and take in her love, see the energy she is sending out from the back of her hands and her heart!

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    dearest jetta,

    Though this is an old blog, I hope you do not mind that I bring it up at this time.

    "You are special every day." I wish your mother would have said those words often to you.

    I wish she would have held you tenderly and with caring and protecting love. I wish you were the apple of her eye and her princess of the house. I felt such a connection to some of your earlier blogs and felt your desire to be loved, healed, protected, and received the foundation and roots of life that you so richly deserved. It was painful for me to read the times of how you pined to love your tormentors and in order to prove your worth.

    I too had lost mothers... A mother who was not able to love and who could not understand herself. I loved her and have always felt that she desired, but was simply not able to love. More harshly was a mother (stepmother) who viewed me as a hardship to her life.

    Yet, I did have a grandmother who was better than 10,000 mothers! God rest her soul. I wish she had not passed while I was so young. The absence of significant people and the switching of significant people early and frequently in life does give both emptiness as well as blessing and gifts.

    Clearly, Jetta, I wonder how different your gifts would be without your life experiences? When I am going through troubled times as I am at this moment, I sometimes feel connected to the empty losses of my youth. It is from that place where I look forward to emerging, resurrecting, as a better and stronger person. Be confident Jetta that your ability to see, find, and send goodness comes from the experience of darkness and your emergence from great challenges.

    The gift you give to your own daughter and family is an example of greatness for which many women simply could not understand. You are tremendous, special, and I am thankful for you! Tom
    1731 days ago
    Lovely blog. I've always been in awe of your survival skills as I still remember when I first came to SP and read some of your experiences that you blogged about. They gave me nightmares just reading about the accounts, let alone living them and surviving. I admire your strength of spirit and tenacity.
    1770 days ago
    You are an inspiration to us all. Thankyou
    1770 days ago
    I am happy you found this love! You deserve to be loved.

    I'm sorry you had to go through everything you did in your childhood,
    and glad you are putting behind you and moving on.

    You became a wonderful, wonderful person, Jetta!
    And have a way with words.
    1770 days ago
    emoticon I consider her my true mother too emoticon
    1770 days ago
    Jetta you are always loved. We are never alone. God is there for us and our Angels cry when we cry. they surround us in light and love. They are sent to hold up our souls when we think our hearts will break. I cry for the indignation that you have suffered and know that it has made you a stronger person and more loving. You were a gift from God that your Mother never appreciated. Feel in your heart and soul the connection to all things and all people. We are all here for a purpose and even though we don't know that purpose God does. emoticon Pam

    When shadows fall upon the land
    I will be there to hold your hand
    When you see a bird with wings spread glide over the sea
    Think of love and think of me
    As your angel I was sent to guard your soul
    and fill your dreams with all of your goal
    I am Amestay, the angel of your dreams
    Let no one make you lose your self esteem
    I will be there when times get rough
    I will be there when the days are tough
    Call on me to soothe your cries
    Last time we said our good byes
    God is the Father and is in us all
    Waiting to take us back home, when he heres us call.
    1771 days ago
    Happy Mother's Day to you too. I lost my mother
    when I was 4 and I believe OuR Lady has always
    been there for me too. She has guided and led me
    along the road my life has taken me. I feel so
    blessed. Love and blessings always. emoticon
    1771 days ago
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