Saturday, May 11, 2013
This week I completed part 1 of my studies and now I can start working on the gym floor and helping people with their programs etc. I will be coming in on my personal time to "shadow" some great trainers, and then get some more hours in the gym. I have been offered 2 other jobs in the last couple weeks that are in the industry and would work with my hours here...but I got to decline both offers because of how quickly things are happening...I'm so excited! :)
Had some emotional stress this weekend and usually I sleep but I had a wee binge and it's a funny thing when you are aware you are doing it and trying to analyze it when you're in the middle of it...and realizing it doesn't even taste good!!! LOL I am still changing obviously and all in positive ways. I don't feel guilty for my binge. I eat pretty well more than 80% of the time...and I know life happens...move on and do better :) It's all good!
Everytime I go to workout, I have to increase my weight size.
My measurements are shrinking :) but I still loathe the question "how much have you...do you...want to lose? I really don't care about the number anymore. I want muscles and strength and to compete in Crossfit one day...that's my goal...it's not a number on the scale anymore....also proof that I'm changing for good. I don't ever desire to be skinny nor would my genetics get me there...I am a strong sturdy German girl. Wunderbar!
I have had MANY setbacks...and still continue to based on my pain from Fibro, nerve and muscle pain, etc. BUT I know how to work with it now. After a big weight lifting session I need the next day off...I was trying 2-3 days on and 1 off...my body didn't like that...so I may work out longer but then I just do cardio the next day or rest with a play activity. :) I have had to learn a lot of patience in the last 2 years! Work with wht you can when you can!
my bloodwork and complete health screen is 100% sweetness! My Dr. keeps telling me to stop being paranoid about diabetes, heart disease, etc....(my family genes are horrific health wise)...but because I work out and eat clean and basically don't eat animals that had eyelashes and fur...my numbers are stellar....so....isn't that what this is about!? I think I've gotten to that point where I KNOW the extra fat will move away slowly and make room for some big muscles that I desire by just continuing to do the right things...and with the right help and support! Day by day...good choice after good choice...it will all add up and a crossfit goddess will emerge....giggle...those of you who know me...fingers crossed I don't hurt myself....LMAO
So...that's the scoop...a bump in the road is not the end of the road! Don't assume you KNOW someone else's story...judgement is unneccessary!