Prepping (i.e. Panicking) for the Spark Solution Challenge
Saturday, May 11, 2013
My husband agreed to try the meal plan with me so we set out for grocery shopping today. My typical grocery bill for one week is under $100. This includes getting some toddler-friendly convenience foods, which are NOT cheap.
The food for Week 1 of this plan came to $270. I was sweating buckets as it was being rung up and almost started crying when we got back to the car. Trevor kept reassuring me that we are only doing this for two weeks, it's all whole healthy foods, it's WORTH it to try this out, learn to like more veggies, etc. etc. But I was on the verge of a panic attack.
We got home and I started unpacking things and the waves of stress just kept getting bigger and bigger. I was shaking and felt like passing out by the time I was done.
It sounds so silly. I mean, it IS good healthy whole foods. Our fridge looks awesome right now loaded with fresh veggies and fruits, low fat dairy, and fresh lean meats. Why am I such a wreck about it? We can afford to do this -- maybe not every week, but definitely for the next two. It is NOT a big DEAL. But I finally broke down and just bawled.
I have serious issues with spending money. Clothing shopping usually leaves me feeling like a guilty mess. I clip coupons and always shop the clearance racks. I read every sale flyer in the Sunday paper. Yet, like Trevor just reminded me, food is THE most important thing to spend money on, so why am I having such a hard time with it? It's not like I just threw $270 down on the latest toy or techno gadget. I need to think of it as spending that money on our health and well-being.
Anyways, I feel a bit better after breaking down. I usually do. It's like sometimes my brain just NEEDS my body to break down like that, and then it's such a relief to let it all out.
I will be spending the rest of the day going through the recipes for the first few days of the plan and prepping as much as possible ahead of time. After spending that money I am more motivated than ever to stick to this plan and make sure NOTHING goes to waste.