Saturday, May 11, 2013
i am generally pretty competitive/hard on myself. if i dont lose weight quickly, i have failed. if i dont exercise harder today than i did yesterday, i have failed. this mindset is what has led me to giving up every time i have tried to lose weight in the past (well...either that or sheer laziness haha).
this time around, there has been a serious change in my thinking. i still have that competitive side, which i dont think is a bad thing necessarily...but i have been able to notice substantial, small changes that are keeping me going.
if i dont really want to work out, i will work out for 20 mins. this probably isnt more than i did yesterday, but i am still working out!
i am not in the LEAST bit tempted to go off track. which is actually kind of bizarre to me haha. i noticed this yesterday -- there was pizza at my office at lunch time, and EVERY ONE had some (and then asked me a thousand questions about why i wasnt having any). umm...not even the least bit tempted! i have my healthy lunch, and those are calories that just dont seem even a little bit worth it!
i went to happy hour after work...the happy hour menu didnt really have anything super healthy on it, so i asked for the real menu. i ended up spending the same amount of money on healthy soup and a small salad as i wouldve on the happy hour menu...and i didnt sacrifice eating healthy!
the other night i got mexican with my boyfriend...they bring chips and salsa to the table. i dont eat any (he is very confused haha, because even though he knows i am working on being healthy, he has NEVER seen me avoid chips and salsa haha)...but again, not even really tempted!
we both got fajitas (which are such a healthy and delicious choice, if you do them the right way!) and i didnt eat my tortillas...again, he was supportive but bewildered haha. but honestly, since i have started this in april, nothing seems more tempting to me than living healthy...it is such a refreshing change and i HOPE i dont lose this mindset!!
my weight loss has been slow, to say the least, and i would love to be making better progress, but i can HONESTLY say that i feel healthy for the first time in my life. i have weighed less than i do now, but it has never been so effortless for me to make healthy choices. i have always felt like i was dieting...or like i needed to balance out the crap that i was eating with tons of exercise...but this is just kind of...normal. which feels almost surreal haha.