Saturday, May 11, 2013
I have not been able to get on to Sparkpeople and post since the about 3 weeks ago or maybe even longer. So I havestarted a new S.M.A.R.T goal and yes I finished the last one. The previous S.M.A.R.T goal was to lose 20lbs by April 20,2013 I lost 21lbs. Thanking God!
So now I have started a new S.M.A.R.T goal and it is to lose another 20lbs by June 20th but I also wanted to start getting strength training in and began and finish C25K and let me tell you its been a complete bust. I was on fire after losing that 20lbs and meeting this goal. I wanted to go right into the next one the first day of the goal was a bit off I had my weekly "splurge" day so that went as planned with shopping for new clothes. EEEEEEEEEEEEEP! but then time went on and the stress from nursing school had started getting to me like it has never before. I was completely depressed for 2 weeks, I mean non-stop crying, not wanting to move and my grades dropped. My grades dropping was the most devastating event. Nursing school I knew was going to be a hard road but damn it not this bad.
I caught myself comparing myself to other students academically,socially, financially, and any other way possible. This was biggest down fall. I don't think there was ever a time that I have wanted to not exisit. To not be noticed and not to speak or be around people.......So what brought me out his funk? Realizing that happiness is a choice that I will have to make everyday I wake up . Secondly I have stopped comparing myself to other people, it's not healthy or helpful. Doing what makes me happy is number one.
I am now back on track with working towards my June 20 goal. I am suppose to be 233lbs on June 20th I am going to work my butt off. I did make it through the trimester and now I am officially 3 months away from graduating and a few steps closer to becoming a nurse.
When I finish nursing school in August I think with new found happiness,strength, and courage I am going to try to start instructing different types of zumba and take my GRE so I can start my NP school in 2014........
I hope I am not dreaming too big! I want my weightloss process to be in maintence phase come January 2014....Goals are being set and they will be achieved. My goals not anyone else's