Friday, May 10, 2013
There really isn't anything special about today.
The date holds no significance to me. The weather is not exceptional. It is not my birthday. Work and study passed as it normally did. It really is quite an ordinary day.
...and yet today is the day I said "F*** It. I'm going to get healthy. RIGHT. NOW."
So I get the Jillian Michaels 30-Day-Shred DVD. I do it. I join Spark People. I weigh in. I take my measurements. I set up my nutrition tracker and post in forums. I yell my commitment to everyone that will listen. And it still feels like an ordinary day except today I am happier than I was yesterday...or last week...or last month. I've struggled with major depression for eight years. Eight YEARS. And in the past two months, I've had success in my treatment. I got back hobbies I hadn't participated in years. I started looking for work and found some.
Today feels like the second step on my journey to wellness: by taking that first, physical step outside and working out, if only briefly.
I will continue to yell - to all that will listen - and hope that any resonating voices come back to me will bolster my resolve further. In 10 days, I hope to update with the first signs of my success.