Friday, May 10, 2013
This is unreasonably, illogically, impossibly hard!
Any parent of a 2-3 year old will say the opposite. Trying to get their kids to eat is a daily torture.
When did I learn to eat for recreation?
Childhood, I'm sure. Nothing else to do? Might as well get some ice cream. Fall down and scrape a knee? Ice cream! Kids at school were mean, go home crying but don't want to talk to Mummy about it? Yeah, you guessed it. Ice cream. Or PB&J would do quite nicely, and Mum didn't see it as a treat.
Over many many years, I have learned to eat because of reasons other than hunger. In fact, I rarely got hungry.
Of course I'm on this journey, searching for a lasting and satisfying healthy way of life. Change is coming. I'm working on dumping my baggage, but it's not that easy. And I'm doing it mostly alone. I have a couple of really good friends, and my sister; but it's still my baggage, my history. And I have SparkPeople. Making some friends, and finding lots of great information, tips and ideas. It's a big help.
Last month I even started the Eat to Live plan. Shocking to me, since the program is so drastically different from my fast food way of life. Not take out, but PB&J, mac&cheese, pasta; quick home stuff. Now I'm eating unlimited salads, vegetables and fruits, and some beans nuts and seeds. Very little of anything else.
And I'm hungry. A lot. As in hungry before every meal. I carry a protein bar in my purse in case the hunger makes me too anxious to cope with it. Only resorted to it once, when I was away from home and the office.
Not sure how long I can maintain it, but I like the results, and I'm not too uncomfortable, so I don't see myself quitting any time soon. I still have all that baggage to deal with. I'm hoping that each time I get through a stressful event without turning to food, it will be a tiny bit easier the next time.
And each blog I write reminds me that this is a journey that I have not quit.