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Not feeling it

Friday, May 10, 2013

Over the past 18 months, I've gone from a size 10 to a size 4. I'm strong and healthy, and I love my new life. I'm just surprised that I REALLY don't feel any different than I felt when I started.
Do you feel different? I'd like to know if this is normal. I expected skinny to feel different than pudgy.
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    I went from a peak of a 40" waist to a 32" waist in pants. Most of the time, being at a 32" waist doesn't feel any different than being at a 40" waist.

    What *does* feel different is being able to run, and being able to do pullups. I didn't become a real runner till after most of the weight came off, and I didn't develop the ability to do pullups until I was right about my current maintenance weight.

    "Being thin" doesn't cut it as motivation for me. I sometimes feel like I'm pudgy, even when I know intellecutally that I am not. But nothing tastes as good as being able to run a 7 minute mile feels. Nothing tastes as good as being able to do pullups feels.
    1747 days ago
    My "feel different" comes in different ways:
    1. I stopped snoring (which interrupted my sleep as well as DH's);
    2. My knees don't hurt all the time, especially when going upstairs;
    3. I don't huff and puff from climbing just one flight of stairs;
    4. My ankles don't swell every day, freeing me from compression socks/stockings;
    5. I find it VERY hard to carry 2 40-pound bags of rock salt down to the basement...even though I used to haul around that same amount of weight on my carcass every day.

    1749 days ago
    This is interesting. I really don't "feel" any different. I was surprised to see myself in the mirror when I got out of the shower. But why should we feel any different? We are still the same people. Better maybe but not different. Make sense?
    1751 days ago
    Thank you everyone. I need a new attitude about myself!
    1751 days ago
    I have a long way to go so not yet!
    1751 days ago
    ONTOVICTORY has a very good blog about your AMI - Attitude Mass Index. Our perceptions of ourselves exert a great deal of influence. I know I've lost almost 60 pounds, and I know I wear clothes that are 4 sizes smaller than a year ago, and I know I see my collarbone when before I couldn't, but I still grapple every day with my MENTAL image of myself. That will take time to acknowledge. Give yourself time. Photos help some, and NSV's from friends.
    On Teacher Appreciation Day, my school admin gave me "The Biggest Loser Award". I'm gonna have it framed!!
    1751 days ago
    I don't know what a 4 feels like yet but, I reckon you've changed more than you even realize. If you were always strong and healthy while trek up mountains, then that's a good thing.

    Keep up the great work! Your success is such an inspiration.
    1751 days ago
  • BOPPY_
    I feel and look way different (better).

    Unfortunately, the single biggest factor in my weight loss motivations -- lumbar stenosis -- has only got slightly better.

    But still, you can only do what you can do ... and, I'll keep after it.

    BTW, in my case, I have new pains, all the time now, some from the much greater exercise I get, which all by itself, is a major lifestyle improvement.

    (Mercifully, we tend not to remember pain, very well.)

    Lee emoticon

    1751 days ago
    You bet it feels better. I'm a size 4 also and I feel good. Don't want to be skinny, but thin is better then pudgy and healthier too.
    1751 days ago
    I haven't reached goal yet, but I do know the mental adjustments are often harder than the physical ones. It takes time to adjust the mental pic of yourself. And when we do reach our goals, we are still the same person inside. We've made a lot of changes, but just like other accomplishments, we change somewhat but our core is still a lot of who we are. Just like we will basically be the same person inside usually whether we go from having no money to having significantly more. The journey does change us, but it is not finished when we reach a certain number. Not sure if this makes a lot of sense because I'm having trouble trying to express what I mean but I hope it does make some sense.
    1752 days ago
    i havent' lost all my wt yet, but I am in "normal" range now, mostly because I am an athlete now, well 2 days ago, I said something about being chubby and a man friend says "Maci, do you really think your chubby?" He acted like I was crazy, I said, yes but a sort of "Sexy chubby" that is the truth, I feel 100% better, but think if myself as a chubby fluff ball still.
    1752 days ago
    I'm still in the process and a long ways away. I don't feel thinner, but I can walk farther and faster and I'm happy about that.
    1752 days ago
    Oh my. I have been in maintenance since July 2011 and sometimes that "old" mentality creeps in . . . don't want clothes to be too "form fitting". but my DD too pointed out that some of my clothes were simply too big! I listened to her advice and she's right . . . I needed to adjust my criteria for clothing fit to LOOK at whether or not it flatters my body shape! I went from a size XL to a size 2 and got rid of 3 complete wardrobes and had to be led kicking and screaming to do it! NOW I just listen to my DD's voice in my head if I'm tempted to buy something too big. Honestly, don't know if it will ever become automatic but for now working on consciously watching how a garment works (or NOT) when I try it on.

    Of course, DD, fashionista that she is, gladly helps her ol' Mom enter the world of modern fashion! It can be daunting.

    Bottom line . . . you're not alone! Definitely not.
    1752 days ago
    I still have the pudgy mentality. At a memorial service recently, my 27-year-old daughter pulled on my blouse around my abdomen area and said "mom you REALLY need to go shopping, this is too big on you!" I'm not a fan of tight clothing and told her it fit fine.

    She looked at a woman standing next to me, rolled her eyes and said "She still thinks she's chubby!"

    It's very true, I walk with more confidence than I used to but unless I see my reflection, I still feel like the short, chubby mom! I think it takes our brain a while to catch up. Plus, I've lost weight so many times over the years, I was never slim long enough for my brain to understand!


    Keep doing what you're doing! Congratulations on your accomplishments!

    1752 days ago
    I have moments where I still "feel" pudgy, even with people saying how "shredded" I look now (I have a very lean upper body), but most of the time I feel lean and healthy. I think it's just what the others have said, the brain takes a while to catch up, and parts of it may never get there! But I think if you tell yourself how fabulous you feel more often, you will start to feel it.
    1752 days ago
    Sometimes it takes a while for our brain to catch up with our body, I hard time to realize that I am now where I want and actually need to be, even yet also in a size 3/4 I feel I look flabby, hubby says I look amazing, I think we just need to adjust our thinking!!
    have a nice day
    1752 days ago
    It's something we need to work on at the same time I find. I've gone from size 22 clothes bought at a plus size store where they obviously lower the sizing. to a 'normal' shop bought 12-14 ( Australian sizes).

    I had a lot of trouble last Saturday telling my daughter 'that won't fit me', 'I'll never fit that' she kept saying you're not that person now Mum, you just feel big.

    I am a changed person inside but the old 'feelings' are still there. It is a work in progress .
    1752 days ago
  • JOANIE69
    I only lost about 20 pounds of about 80 I ought to lose. However I do notice a difference in that my clothes fit better and some are too large.

    I have been at goal many times through life though, and I know what you mean about still feeling pudgy. Now when I look at old photographs I wonder why I thought I was fat. Once I cried over the fact that I had "hated" myself and didn't want to be with people because I felt I was too fat and inferior to them.

    I am praying that God will lift that feeling and thinking of 'sameness and non-accomplishment' out of your mindset. That is just a lie of the devil who would love for you to become involved in an eating disorder. You are a tiny size 4 (and not feeling great about that) - when even size 10 is very good (& healthy) for most folk. Rejoice (!) and think of yourself as healthy...'thin' or 'dress size' is unimportant (I have/can fit into clothes from size 14 to 2 X, for heaven's sake!)

    emoticon Healthy, healthy you! Celebrate! emoticon emoticon Love yourself NOW! emoticon
    1752 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 7:24:03 AM
  • TERRY0217
    Now that you mention it...I lost 10lbs and although clothes do fit better, I seem to be more aware of my health...I'm more careful of what I do and eat...not an emotional high, but, an awareness...
    1752 days ago
    Well, sometimes 'feeling' it takes longer than actually 'doing' it. Your brain has to be able to do the math and admit that any woman who wears a size 4 is a slender person. How you feel about it will change over time.

    when I was in my early 30's I was horrified that I'd gained so much weight that I actually weighed 150 lbs! I went on a diet immediately. in my 50's I decided that 150 was a good goal to reach! so what's the difference between 150 and 150?

    And have you ever noticed that when you're gaining, a specific weight can feel huge and when you're losing, it feels so slim. Maybe it's our deep subconscious telling us that what we weigh is not THAT important. It's only one indicator of how we are living.

    so keep on living well - and pretty soon you'll feel like you are.

    hugs. and watch the salt.
    1752 days ago
    Sorry not near to goal, but will say i can tell with the 23 lbs I have lost I can feel it. That could be cos I have severe arthritis so am able to move more and also have physio massage helping. Also I eliminated grains and dairy and sugar as the naturopath I go to said they were feeding my inflammation which wouldn't go down no matter what the GP did. I have not felt bloated, or that yukky full feeling in while. I will probably be able to bo back on dairy and or sugar ( to some extent ) at some time, but I wil not go back to gluten. My blood work didn't show celiac but I can certainly tell the diff. so dr said could be sensitivity there.
    But I hope that I still dont feel fat when I get to goal, I think my reason as I said that I can tell is cos a no longer bloated.

    1752 days ago
    Congrats to you! I have lost 25 pounds but can recognize how I look. I don't feel pudgy.
    1752 days ago
    This shot was taken on the summit of Mt. Monadnock on New Year's Day 2013.
    1752 days ago
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