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Sick and Tired of being SICK and TIRED of my weight!

Friday, May 10, 2013

Just got home around 11p.m. tonight and after putting our daughter in her bed to sleep I looked at myself in the mirror with disgust. "How could you have let yourself go so much? Why are you allowing yourself to keep declining?" I asked myself. A tear literally dropped and I never thought that I would hate myself so much. It's been so hard sticking to a routine. I definitely need help and really need to motivate myself. It's just been so hard and I know everything I am going to write in the next couple of sentences is going to be an excuse but hey, if someone reading this has advice for me than that would be awesome. Any who, I was doing great with working out everyday for a month last month until my daughter got sick with bronchitis. It's been 2 weeks now since I've been to the gym and my eating habits have just been garbage! I'm a stay at home mom and go to school full time in the evenings. My boyfriend works from 7-4 everyday except tuesday and thursdays because I start school at 3:30 those days until 9 and monday and wednesdays I start at 4-9. The gym we go to closes at 9:30pm. They have a sitter service that I bring my daughter to but since she's been sick we haven't been able to go. She's now getting over her sickness and I am finding it so hard to get back on track. With school ending in 2 weeks, I wanted to get back on a routine but next month I start an evening job that starts at 3:30-12am. I've gotta figure a way to getting exercise into my daily schedule and start making healthier food choices. I've been so depressed, stressed and just have the worst anxiety when it comes to my weight. It's time for a REAL change! Hopefully SPARK will be able to keep me on track!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
GEMINIMUMMA 5/10/2013 7:56AM

    I'm so sorry things are hard right now. I've been there with the self loathing and I know how difficult it can be to snap out of it.

But snap out of it, I have..and you can too. Start with baby steps...park far away in the lot when you go to the store..take the stairs when you could take the as many sit ups/push ups/squats/crunches as you can during a commercial break on television.

And most of all, be gentle with yourself. emoticon

Comment edited on: 5/10/2013 10:28:42 PM

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DWROBERGE 5/10/2013 2:36AM

    Keep focused for success. You can do it too. Go for it.

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LBOUAPHA 5/10/2013 1:39AM

    Thank you so much for the words of encouragement! You all are really motivating me!

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STEPH-KNEE 5/10/2013 1:07AM

    It sounds like you had a good run before your daughter got sick. Just get back to what you were doing in baby steps. Maybe start with tracking water? Doing some exercise at home? Tracking your food? You can get back on track one step at a time. emoticon

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A_NEW_CHAPTER 5/10/2013 1:02AM

    Do any little thing that you can feel good about - start really small, 2 minutes, 5 minutes, walk around the house, turn an everyday chore into an exercise session just for a few minutes, find a short video on youtube, You want this! (or you wouldn't be here) And your daughter needs this from her mom (she's SO cute!).
Don't beat yourself because you've gotten off-track - brush yourself off and do one thing to make a step forward.
We're here for you! You can do this! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DIANE7786 5/10/2013 1:00AM

    Did you notice the ad on this site for The Spark Solution? If you buy it online or in a store you get some gifts. One is 3 free months with a Spark coach. The individualized help might be just what you need to get back on track. The book has a lot of great recipes that take less than 10 mins to prep--a huge help for busy people.

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