Friday, May 10, 2013
Just got home around 11p.m. tonight and after putting our daughter in her bed to sleep I looked at myself in the mirror with disgust. "How could you have let yourself go so much? Why are you allowing yourself to keep declining?" I asked myself. A tear literally dropped and I never thought that I would hate myself so much. It's been so hard sticking to a routine. I definitely need help and really need to motivate myself. It's just been so hard and I know everything I am going to write in the next couple of sentences is going to be an excuse but hey, if someone reading this has advice for me than that would be awesome. Any who, I was doing great with working out everyday for a month last month until my daughter got sick with bronchitis. It's been 2 weeks now since I've been to the gym and my eating habits have just been garbage! I'm a stay at home mom and go to school full time in the evenings. My boyfriend works from 7-4 everyday except tuesday and thursdays because I start school at 3:30 those days until 9 and monday and wednesdays I start at 4-9. The gym we go to closes at 9:30pm. They have a sitter service that I bring my daughter to but since she's been sick we haven't been able to go. She's now getting over her sickness and I am finding it so hard to get back on track. With school ending in 2 weeks, I wanted to get back on a routine but next month I start an evening job that starts at 3:30-12am. I've gotta figure a way to getting exercise into my daily schedule and start making healthier food choices. I've been so depressed, stressed and just have the worst anxiety when it comes to my weight. It's time for a REAL change! Hopefully SPARK will be able to keep me on track!