Friday, May 10, 2013
Today was my dad's birthday, so his co-workers threw a party for him which was pretty awesome. I managed to stay within the upper limit of my calorie restraints (barely), but I didn't get my walk in today thanks to the hail and rain. Yesterday I just walked in place (the SparkPeople GPS didn't work so I just used a pedometer), but I didn't get a chance today.
I did finally figure out why I've been having such a tough time sleeping the past couple of days (more so than usual, anyway). My left shoulder's been pretty sore, but it's gotten bad enough that I notice it even when I'm not trying to sleep now. I just saw my doctor a couple of days ago for my immunization records though, so I want to give it a couple more days before I go running back.
Of course, I had an entirely different reason for being unable to sleep when I tried going to bed an hour ago. I heard back from the first of the universities I applied to for the fall and was accepted. It's fantastic news, don't get me wrong, but I didn't get to bask in the glow as long as I'd hoped before my mom pointed out that I still have to find a way to finance this. I've already used up most of the loan money that was available to me on my first degree, and according to one of the financial aid sites I was perusing, it is really hard to get a scholarship if you're working on your second bachelor's.
I mean, ideally I'll get a job over the summer and another while I'm in school to help finance it, but I don't know if that's going to be enough. Well, that and I've been looking for a job for a year now and haven't managed to find one, I don't really see how I'm going to manage one now just because I need it.
I don't know. I just really, really want to do this, and I'm really worried I'm not going to be able to because I can't afford it. I don't want to make it this far just to fail.
Sorry to be such a downer tonight. I'm sure things will look better tomorrow.