It's amazing how a little stick with two bright pink lines can change everything, isn't it? It's especially life changing when you think you have life all figured out, have this grand plan in place with all these wonderful fitness goals and WHAM!! Two pink lines.
Yep, that happened. About two weeks ago. I have been a little silent on the blog, because I am still processing and absorbing this newest development in life. As you can probably see in the "About Me" section on my Sparkpage, I have four beautiful children. Our youngest, will be 5 in July and going to Kindergarten. We were looking forward to this new found freedom with much anticipation. Going back to pregnancy, childbirth, diapers, feedings and sleepless nights was definitely NOT on my agenda.
But, life doesn't always follow an agenda, does it? Sometimes, the greatest "upsets" in life bring about the most beautiful changes and discoveries.
I was watching it rain earlier today. The sky was a dark grey and the rain drizzled just outside my window. Now, I know a lot of people don't like dreary weather, but I love the rain! For something that can look so depressing, it brings about such brilliant life. The trees, grass and bushes were bursting with gorgeous bright green color. And it reminded me to be open to change and that change can be a very good thing.
So, there's going to be a lot of that change in my life. Because of my "advanced maternal age" (charming, isn't it?) and my history of miscarriages, the doctor has strongly advised me to stop teaching all high impact aerobics classes. No regular Zumba, no Aqua Zumba and no running. At first I freaked out. I am a high impact aerobics instructor!! This is my identity now. But, once I allowed the freak out to happen, a peace settled over me. There is a wonderful world of fitness out there. There are so many things for me to choose from. Even simply slowing down, taking a walk and enjoying the scenery and fresh air will have amazing benefits. Maybe I'll take up swimming. And what a surprise it will be to the body! My muscles are used to running and Zumba dance moves, but not to swimming. Now, other muscles will be challenged...maybe ones I didn't realize that were under utilized. Maybe I'll find something new that I will fall in love with like I have with Zumba and running. The possibilities are endless!
This is not an ending. Like the little life growing inside of me, this is a new beginning. I will accept all of this with an open heart, an open mind and open arms.
Ah....and the Tortilla Chips. I totally binged on them tonight. Yep, bad, bad me. And, if you've ever checked out the nutritional information on the back of those bags, there are so little tortilla chips for so many calories (even when buying the nice multigrain ones)!
So, a lot of you asked what worked for me in the past and I'll tell you. A) Logging all foods eaten here on Sparkpeople and B) Staying accountable to the Sparkpeople community.
No more binging on tortilla chips for me! Y'all have to hold me accountable so that I can get through this pregnancy in a strong and healthy way. And I will hold you accountable, too.
So, put that chip down right now!! Let's do this together (pregnancy totally optional).