Thursday, May 09, 2013
Thank you to all the Spark Warriors out there who commented on my blog yesterday. Each one of you showed the capacity humans have for grace and compassion. Most people don't think of those characteristics as weaponry, but truly, when it comes down to it those are the weapons needed the most. It is sadness, depression, and other unruly emotions that do the most damage in the world and they are not fought any other way than with kindness, empathy, grace, and compassion. So yes, you are all warriors.
Did we win?
I think so. :) I did meet with soon to be Ex and told him what I needed to. While I most certainly was not mean, I said exactly what was needed and no more. I expressed and while I did not feel better necessarily, I felt a much needed valve open for release.
Right now, it feels like much of the biggest part of the storm has passed. There is still so much wind and noise emotionally and most definitely the sun has not come out, I'm in this eerie stillness, that part where there is an occasional gust of wind and then nothing, like even the bravest songbird is silent and waiting. In limbo.
The good news is what usually comes next is warmth and sunshine right? LOL! That's what I'm hoping for.
Anyhoo, I took a half day off. My head was aching so much from all this and I just needed some time. I went to the backyard with my "homework" from recovery and found much needed peace there with the wind in the trees and my sweet doggie at my side. Plus, I had so much comfort in knowing that even though my immediate support system is halfway around the world. Halfway around the world there are others willing to step in and be warriors for me too.