Thursday, May 09, 2013
So right now I am really reaping the benefits of living healthy and adding in exercise. I am getting really good results and I know its just a matter of time before I reach a good point. I'm just so scared of maintenance. I'm also scared of never reaching my goal. Well, not in the sense that I can't do it physically. More mentally. I don't want to never be satisfied with the way I look. I'm really trying to be okay with liking how I look. This may sound strange. I don't know, maybe Im nuts. I have to learn that liking how I look does not make me conceited. I also need to learn to not let it make me complacent. Once I get to my goal I need to continue living healthy. I guess that's one of the main reasons to lose weight and get fit the healthy way. It takes longer so it becomes more a part of your life. Not a quick fix that gets you there and you can stop and most likely gain it all back. Well, I still have about 8 lbs to go. I would also like to drop one more pants size. I just hope I can finally get to an "I did it" point. I don't want to be forever chasing an unknown end. I don't know. Last time I got this close I just stopped and gained it all back. I think my previous goal was a little unrealistic so I thought I'd never get there. I hope I learned from it. I think I did. I think I've gotten to the point where I'm okay with living and eating the way I do. I love what I eat now. So I know that wont be the issue. I think Im just fearful of not being satisfied, and then I'm afraid of getting there and letting go. These are just the fears of success I guess. LOL Strange to say. Normally its the fear of failure you hear about.. Well just wanted to get my strange thoughts out there so I can analyze them. I think it's helped me though. I know I can do it and keep doing it. I just gotta continue doing it.