Something for myself
Thursday, May 09, 2013
Well, let's see... Things really haven't changed much since I last posted. I am not having the pains in my back, and I attribute that to switching to organic foods. I am working on doing it, but I haven't had any pains at all since I switched the beef over. I also buy the eggs, milk, and sometimes other meats organic, and I have seen a DRASTIC change in how I feel after I eat. Used to be, I couldn't eat 2 eggs without feeling a sort of icky chemically sick feeling by the time I was almost done. Then I tried the organic eggs, and they are so yummy! I even had 3 over medium eggs once and didn't feel even a little bit bad! So organic is the way I am headed. It is definitely more expensive (a gallon of organic milk here is about double the regular), but I think it is worth it.
My daughter and her little family are still living in my grandparents' old house, but my aunt has told them they have until the end of next month to move. It will be difficult on them to find a place, but my mother is willing to help them pay rent and electric (maybe they'll get a place that will include utilities), since she's been paying their electric bill this year so far. This means that the house will be open for me to move into in July. I am encouraged by that, more than you can know! I have been working on my resume, and I am ready to start looking for work there. I have a church picked out to try in the area, and some leads.
The church situation here hasn't quite settled. We have a new senior pastor, but his "appointment" has brought more bed feelings because of the way it was handled. People are leaving the church again, and that's fine. One of the people who left is a friend of mine who was on the prayer ministry with me. I hate to say it, but I am glad that I no longer see her every week. She had become so negative and angry about the way things at the church were going, I really didn't want to be around her. Add to that my mother's pastor's wife... she and I are friends, and she sends me prayer requests. She is an awesome lady, but there has been a major upheaval in that church as well, and her husband (who is an awesome man of God, in my opinion) has been forced out, effective in June. It has been a difficult time for both of them, from the whisper campaign to the openly hostile congregational meeting. But she is becoming very bitter about the situation there. It doesn't help that her entire Facebook page is taken up by the negative news - the bombings, shootings, political - and I personally think she is feeding on it too much. I don't know how she could manage to post up "breaking news" unless she has some news channel on 24/7, and she hates it if something happens and she doesn't have the info. These two women have been so emotionally draining to me. Both have emailed me, one to apologize for her words of anger one night and the other to ask (for the nth time) for special prayers for peace, and I have emailed them back, hopefully in a loving way, trying to find out why they feel the way they do, why they haven't been able to let go of the negativity, why they just can't step back for a few hours and let God wash over them with peace and grace. Neither email was well-received.
But this prompted me to do something for myself. I am off Facebook for the next 2-3 days. I am checking email once a day. Tonight I am going to make dinner and settle down to watch season 3 of Downton Abbey. I'm going to knit, or cross stitch, and have some tea. And I am going to have some rest and relaxation from the negativity that inundates me. This is my good thing i am doing for myself.