Tuesday after work I bought new work clothes. My clothes didn't fit. My pants were baggy. Even my jeans were baggy. I had no spring/summer clothes suitable for work. Well I did, but it was limited to 1 top and 1 pair of beige pants. People would notice if I wore them over and over. And T-shirts. I could wear the sh!t out of T-shirts, but those aren't business casual. I went to the same store as I always do- Ricki's. Their clothes fit my body shape so well. I found everything I needed, and then some. I could have kept shopping but it is probably for the best that the store was closing! haha I fit into the same size pants as I was wearing before- a size 8. But these fit better. And I fit a size S top. Me?! A size S?! In fact I tried on quite a few size S tops, and some size 6 tops. They fit.
Today after our run a running buddy and I hit up Old Navy and I found a pair of size 8 jeans and some M tanks I quite liked. And they all fit me perfectly. Last summer I fit their L tanks. In fact I still have em in my drawer. Am I a size 8 pant for sure?! For sure! And I bought the second pair of jeans, too. I was all- to h*ll with the fact that I may hopefully only fit them for a month....I will wear the sh!t out of all these well-fitting clothes. I will feel like a million bucks (at least I didn't spend a million bucks in doing so).
I know, I need pictures.
I had a work meeting yesterday, and I saw some coworkers I hadn't seen in a couple months. I had no less than 4 people come up to me and tell me how amazing I was looking! And 2 compliments on a lilac L'Oreal nail polish I was wearing. Crazy, eh? It made me feel like a million bucks.
Yesterday I didn't know what they would be serving so I packed myself a taco salad- salad fixings, cherry tomatoes from the farmer's market, spiced ground chicken, cheese, fresh farmer's market salsa and light sour cream. I packed it in ice and slipped out to my car to eat it. I wonder if anyone (besides my table) noticed me gone at lunch. The lunch table was relatively healthy, but I didn't know. It was easier just to pack my own and be prepared.
And yesterday after the meeting I went and got my hair done. I was complimented on it 5 times last night. Just a cut and natural looking highlights in it. It is that time of the year when I want a sunkissed look.
Last night at running a running buddy said:
him: You are slimming and trimming!
him: the wife and I were talking about that. You are slimming and trimming. Good job. (we went over to their house on Saturday past)
me: Yes! Thank you!
I am feeling like a million bucks.
Today again, 2 more compliments about my 'slimming and trimming.' I'm feeling like a rock star. I guess I can't slip by without people noticing my weight going down. I don't mind though, I really don't. I like the confidence boost, the show that my hard work is paying off. That it is noticeable, and not just to me.
But, I also feel like a fraud.
I was in the grocery store the other day, dressed up in my running gear from my run, picking up a couple of things. My cart was loaded with super healthy foods- lean ground chicken breast, bananas, spinach, 1% milk, watermelon, peppers....you get the idea. Not a treat to be found in this haul this time. I went through the line and the girl working the till gave me the once over and swept her eyes over my food before ringing me in. It was awkward and I wished to justify my healthy purchases or something. As a former overweight person.
And walking through the crowds yesterday at the meeting I alternatively felt like 100 lbs heavier and this size in a single change of breath. I expected to look in the mirror and see the old me staring back.
It's all hitting right now. The compliments and the test situations.
I'm gearing up for a 2-day conference, which coincides with my 'carb loading' days, so this may work. I have to be so very diligent, as I find it easy to overeat at conferences. It's not like I became overweight by eating too many apples and drinking too much water...however, I am so close, so very, very close to the 100lb tipping point for weight loss, that I need to keep that in mind during the conference.
Just some random ramblings. Have a great day!