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Random Ramblings of the Good Kind

Thursday, May 09, 2013

Tuesday after work I bought new work clothes. My clothes didn't fit. My pants were baggy. Even my jeans were baggy. I had no spring/summer clothes suitable for work. Well I did, but it was limited to 1 top and 1 pair of beige pants. People would notice if I wore them over and over. And T-shirts. I could wear the sh!t out of T-shirts, but those aren't business casual. I went to the same store as I always do- Ricki's. Their clothes fit my body shape so well. I found everything I needed, and then some. I could have kept shopping but it is probably for the best that the store was closing! haha I fit into the same size pants as I was wearing before- a size 8. But these fit better. And I fit a size S top. Me?! A size S?! In fact I tried on quite a few size S tops, and some size 6 tops. They fit.
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Today after our run a running buddy and I hit up Old Navy and I found a pair of size 8 jeans and some M tanks I quite liked. And they all fit me perfectly. Last summer I fit their L tanks. In fact I still have em in my drawer. Am I a size 8 pant for sure?! For sure! And I bought the second pair of jeans, too. I was all- to h*ll with the fact that I may hopefully only fit them for a month....I will wear the sh!t out of all these well-fitting clothes. I will feel like a million bucks (at least I didn't spend a million bucks in doing so).

I know, I need pictures.

I had a work meeting yesterday, and I saw some coworkers I hadn't seen in a couple months. I had no less than 4 people come up to me and tell me how amazing I was looking! And 2 compliments on a lilac L'Oreal nail polish I was wearing. Crazy, eh? It made me feel like a million bucks.

Yesterday I didn't know what they would be serving so I packed myself a taco salad- salad fixings, cherry tomatoes from the farmer's market, spiced ground chicken, cheese, fresh farmer's market salsa and light sour cream. I packed it in ice and slipped out to my car to eat it. I wonder if anyone (besides my table) noticed me gone at lunch. The lunch table was relatively healthy, but I didn't know. It was easier just to pack my own and be prepared.

And yesterday after the meeting I went and got my hair done. I was complimented on it 5 times last night. Just a cut and natural looking highlights in it. It is that time of the year when I want a sunkissed look.
Last night at running a running buddy said:
him: You are slimming and trimming!
me: Yes!
him: the wife and I were talking about that. You are slimming and trimming. Good job. (we went over to their house on Saturday past)
me: Yes! Thank you!

I am feeling like a million bucks.

Today again, 2 more compliments about my 'slimming and trimming.' I'm feeling like a rock star. I guess I can't slip by without people noticing my weight going down. I don't mind though, I really don't. I like the confidence boost, the show that my hard work is paying off. That it is noticeable, and not just to me.

But, I also feel like a fraud.

I was in the grocery store the other day, dressed up in my running gear from my run, picking up a couple of things. My cart was loaded with super healthy foods- lean ground chicken breast, bananas, spinach, 1% milk, watermelon, get the idea. Not a treat to be found in this haul this time. I went through the line and the girl working the till gave me the once over and swept her eyes over my food before ringing me in. It was awkward and I wished to justify my healthy purchases or something. As a former overweight person.

And walking through the crowds yesterday at the meeting I alternatively felt like 100 lbs heavier and this size in a single change of breath. I expected to look in the mirror and see the old me staring back.

It's all hitting right now. The compliments and the test situations.
I'm gearing up for a 2-day conference, which coincides with my 'carb loading' days, so this may work. I have to be so very diligent, as I find it easy to overeat at conferences. It's not like I became overweight by eating too many apples and drinking too much water...however, I am so close, so very, very close to the 100lb tipping point for weight loss, that I need to keep that in mind during the conference.

Just some random ramblings. Have a great day!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SGRAY478 5/13/2013 6:29PM

    So glad that you are feelin so good!

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KCLARK89 5/10/2013 9:34AM

    AWESOME work!! Congrats on almost hitting 100lbs!! I didn't have quite as much to lose, but I can definitely say that being smaller now than in college, there are times where I still see and feel myself as being that bigger person. Take the compliments that are given and realize how FANTASTIC of a job you are doing!

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CLPURNELL 5/9/2013 11:53PM

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You deserve every compliment!!!!You have worked hard and it shows!

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MOTHEPRO 5/9/2013 10:15PM

    emoticon emoticon You're awesome and so inspiring!

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POOKASLUAGH 5/9/2013 12:56PM

    Sounds like things are going really well. :)

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IGSBETH 5/9/2013 11:25AM

    You are doing great! Don't let them get you down!

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DEBJAE 5/9/2013 10:08AM

    I am happy, happy, happy for you! You're doing awesome, but you already know that!


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KIMPY225 5/9/2013 10:01AM

    Don't feel like a fraud - you are awesome! People give looks all the time. Healthy = Good! Keep it up!

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PANDASUE2 5/9/2013 8:43AM

    Great job! Hold on to those feelings you feel when people give you those compliments. You are no longer the old you and you deserve to be happy! Congrats!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/9/2013 7:30AM

    Congrats on on all the great purchases, that's fantastic! I understand what you're saying. All the compliments are awesome, and at the same time, they just can't be talking about you right? Because at any moment, you're going to regain the 100 pounds... I totally get it. You've done a great job, and you look awesome, soak it in and enjoy your new life.

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INCREDIBLYME 5/9/2013 4:28AM

    you are amazing- take that million dollar feeling to the nearest bank and cash In emoticon

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PINKEUROGIRL 5/9/2013 1:14AM

    Well done!!

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ZRIE014 5/9/2013 1:07AM

  today is the first day of the rest of your life

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