Wednesday, May 08, 2013
I felt compelled to share a thought I had while I did a level two workout today and was struggling a little. Today was the first time I had done level two, feeling I can do level one pretty well and it was time to push a little.
It was a rough, long day at work, and I didn't even want to work out when I got home - but I did. About half way through the work out, I started in on myself with negative thoughts. It always goes through my head about how out of shape I am and what a blob I feel like when I can't do the plyometrics and have to modify almost all of the harder moves. It occurred to me that I do this frequently. I focus on how I'm not good enough or pretty enough or skinny enough - when is enough, well, enough?!
Why am I not proud of my accomplishments? Why can't I focus on the fact that six months ago - I wouldn't have worked out at all after a day like today. Six weeks ago, I was having difficulties with level one. Here I am - doing level two! Finishing level two!
I made a decision. I have a new personal goal to ban the self bashing in my head. The next time I think about how my belly fat jiggles while I am doing jumping jacks - I am going to tell myself how proud I am that I can - and am - DOING jumping jacks! When I think about a work out being hard - and won't this ever get easier? I will think about how it is hard because I have pushed myself to the next level. I have challenged myself and will get stronger.
I am banishing my negative self talk. I am going to change the voice in my head. I can do this!