ok, i know, i have an on again/off again/on again love affair with spark. well, that needs to change. i miss my spark friends, i miss the help, the motivation, etc. I am now 31 weeks and some change pregnant with a little girl, my oldest is now 5 (going on 15) and my son is now 1 1/2 and we call him crash, and working part time with primerica (still working on getting my life insurance license, but im more interested in the financial assistance aspect of it), so i'm pretty busy.
what brought me back?
well, that drama with A&F clothing store came around again. my daughter... my 5 yr old daughter, has been saying she needs make up, she needs her hair painted, she needs to lose weight, her legs are too big, she needs less wrinkles.... yes, i wear makeup, i color my hair, but i have NEVER talked about weight in front of her. we have talked about working out, but never about weight. i can't say the same for other people around us, but i keep my own body issue drama to a minimum, so she can at least see that i'm not hateful of my body. what does that have to do with A&F? have you seen their ads? my daughter has. what little girl needs to be told that they have to be under size 10, have big boobs, and be "sexy" acting???
for me, a former cosmetology student, someone who has been coloring my own hair since i was 11, and someone who is around alot of "beautiful" people (*note, not "thin" people, just people who take care of themselves and are very sweet. some of them are big, some aren't, but they are kind, well dressed, and smile often) I have always felt i need to sell myself. yes, i need to look decent when doing sales, or when i was in the public doing hair...
does that mean i need to color my hair all the time? wear a pound of make up? weigh myself constantly?
mild workouts (i'm in alot of pain with this baby, but alittle won't harm but help)
no more hair coloring for one whole year! (gasp!! can i do this?? i have a horrible color job on my head right now)
drink LOTS OF WATER
follow FLYLADY better (finally loving yourself? yes please!)
no more picking at my nails
i'm sure i'll find a few other things to throw in, but these are pretty big ones for me to start with. as for my HUGE 1 year hair color no go goal, i'm setting smaller goals of course, every 30 days maybe i'll go in and get a deep conditioning treatment and a trim, or get a new hair accessory... i'm still going to dress good, do my hair, throw on a little bit of more natural looking makeup for meetings, etc. but i want her to see that its about caring about yourself enough to have pride in your looks, and if you want something to work towards the goal... don't go running to the hair salon b/c the tv says the new color is blah blah blah, or this new diet pill, or this new fat reduction surgery, etc.
ok, enough rambling :) time to brows some spark, make some set goals, put a plan in place, and get my grove on!