Wednesday, May 08, 2013
this month so far has been perplexing - i don't want to repeat the usual frustrating, maddening, insane - etc.
again the MATH does not work with the calories in/out theory. over the last two weeks i have been under more back breaking stress imaginable. as a result - i have been thru another bladder infection, fibro flare up and digestive troubles. i also lost my appetite and because of meds i have a lousy taste in my mouth.
but i make sure to hydrate as best i can.
i have steadily gone up the five pounds it took me more than two months to lose!!!!
i hurt all over - aches, joint pains - the arm with the bp cuff is unbearable and unusable.
i drag myself through out the day - pushing myself and my body to move.
this is not quality of life - and i hate to say that cause i know there are so many people putting up with so much more.
there are tears, there are prayers - but at the end of the day it is only me.
the Serenity prayer is on my fridge and i say it often.
i am losing ground - tough - let's hope tomorrow is a better day!