Wednesday, May 08, 2013
I just cannot see any hope anymore. I survived the cancer, but the radiation has affected me so that I cannot go back to work outside the house. I am lucky if I can go outside the house without major problems. So I cannot pay my bills. I have not been buying anything but necessities and I have nothing left on credit and no money. I have been told to move from the house I grew up in to government subsidized housing, but I had a friend there (in this town) who was beaten almost to death when she tried to do her laundry. The cops wouldn't do a thing about it. What point is there in conquering cancer and trying to get my health back when I face moving to a place where all I can do is sit inside the locked apartment in fear and never do anything again. Every month I face the bills I cannot pay. Before I had something I could borrow from, but no more. There isn't anything left in that account to borrow from. NOTHING! I don't know what to do anymore.