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I try and try, but for what?

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

I just cannot see any hope anymore. I survived the cancer, but the radiation has affected me so that I cannot go back to work outside the house. I am lucky if I can go outside the house without major problems. So I cannot pay my bills. I have not been buying anything but necessities and I have nothing left on credit and no money. I have been told to move from the house I grew up in to government subsidized housing, but I had a friend there (in this town) who was beaten almost to death when she tried to do her laundry. The cops wouldn't do a thing about it. What point is there in conquering cancer and trying to get my health back when I face moving to a place where all I can do is sit inside the locked apartment in fear and never do anything again. Every month I face the bills I cannot pay. Before I had something I could borrow from, but no more. There isn't anything left in that account to borrow from. NOTHING! I don't know what to do anymore.

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    It's no wonder you're depressed. I don't know all the details of your situation, but I assume you're receiving, or have applied for, disability or SSI? Perhaps your case worker can help you find some more resources. Have you called? Perhaps there are some resources you just aren't aware of. Meanwhile, I'm thinking of you every day and sending good thoughts your way.


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AWESOMECHELZ 5/9/2013 1:58PM

    I don't know, either, what to tell you to fix your problem since mine are similar. I just wanted to say that I am sorry about your pain. I would call the community social services place or contact someone from elder services (depending on your age) or your church, or ask friends for ideas on where to go in your community to get ideas for help. Life really sucks sometimes, I know, but hang on to all that you have. God bless you.

Love, Chelsea emoticon emoticon

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FANCYQTR 5/9/2013 4:29AM

    It was the doctor. I have already contacted Human Services. They have taken away half my medical help and part of the food stamps. If I had known I would end up like this and unable to go back to work at all I would not have had the surgery and treatments to get rid of the cancer. I did not want to die, but this is not really living.

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SUSANBEAMON 5/9/2013 12:52AM

  is that Social Services that told you to move, or just some random people? it is past time to contact the welfare department local office. your hospital can help, since they will have to provide you with paperwork.

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