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Why not just give up????

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

That's what I began asking myself today after receiving some more bad news. Over the past week, week and a half it seems bad thing are happening. In nursing we always knew that bad things happened in 3's. People always died in 3's. It always happened that way. We didn't expect anything else to happen. Well, in regular life it is the same way, not with people dying but with bad things happening.

Last week one of my kitties died, that was the first thing. Then my mom fell and broke two ribs and by the end of the week ended up in the hospital...again, and is now it looking at long term nursing care, that's number two. To top the week off we got the news today that my DH's disability case was denied again, that's number three.

After reading the mail today both of us were truly disgusted and discouraged. My heart fell to the floor and I just felt like giving up on everything. Why bother??? It seems the more I wanted something the farther away it went from me. Of course my solution was to gorge myself on the Chinese buffet for lunch. Fried wontons, chicken fingers, low mein noodles, an eggroll, green beans, potatoes and chicken & shrimp with veggies. I had a container full of food and woofed it down in a matter of minutes. It tasted so good and did make me feel better....for a little while. Oh yeah, throw some potato chips in there for good measure.

After all that DH and I went to bed to sleep off our Chinese carb high!!! After waking up I felt strangely better. My mind was a little clearer. DH was playing on the computer. I went to him and told him that the three bad things have happened so now we are in for something good to happen. I really believe that. Something better is coming along and it will be worth the wait and trials that we've been experiencing.

So, even though I wanted to give up, throw the towel in, I've come to far to let one piece of mail knock me down. There is a rainbow after the storm, a little ray of sunshine that comes out from the clouds, the "spark" still shines. That's what is happening outside my window right now. We've been having rain for days now and this evening the sun has poked it's head out between the clouds and it is shining, showing me that there is always a brighter side right around the corner.

Give up? NO!!! My next meal is a new start. I can pick myself up and keep on going. There's always a speed bump where you least expect it.
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    Yep you got some real big stress going on with dealing with SS we had to wait 2 years on ours. We all have to give our selves a break now and then I don't feel so guilty anymore if I am craving some Chinese buffet like you said get right back on the next day no big deal. So sorry about your kitty pets are family members its so hard emoticon
    1502 days ago
    I am with you. Feel like giving up but know that is only the easy way out. Food is my comfort and I am catching myself turning to it right now with the pain in my back. Then at night I kick myself for being so weak. Hopefully after Wednesday I can get myself back on track and quit the pity party. Keep telling myself that there are worse problems for people out there and I should Thank God for what health I have. We can do this and know there are better days ahead. Chin up!! emoticon emoticon
    1509 days ago
  • LGAR519
    Got my disability on the third time but had to go to Court to get it. Praying for your Mom.
    1510 days ago
    When my husband passed away after only 7 1/2 weeks of marriage the Lord spoke to my heart not to let the disappointments of life shipwreck my faith. He showed me in the scriptures where He had used the greatest disappointments to catapult people into the greatest times of their lives. Job lost everything; his children, his possessions; everything but His wife and God restored unto him twice as much as he had before. God is a restorer of what the devil steals from us! Just think about how disappointed the disciples were when Jesus was crucified. They felt that their world had come to an end. Peter had recognized Him as the Christ, the Son of the living God. He was the one that they had placed their trust in and now He was dead. But then came the morning! Suddenly Jesus was alive again! Had He not died no one would have had the opportunity to be freed from sin and live forever with Him in heaven!

    Don't expect bad things to happen you. Yes, we all have disappointments in life, but God always provides and gives back more than what is taken from us. I was devastated when my husband died and thought my world had come to an end and God brought a very godly man into my life to be my life mate. What the devil meant for harm God turned for good! He will do the same for you if you will have faith in Him and believe for the good life that He has promised you.

    emoticon for you!
    1510 days ago
  • MRSP90X
    Sorry for all you are going through. I feel like that too sometimes, but great job turrning around!
    1511 days ago
    Well, you're human and sometimes we get so piled on we don't know what to do. So you let a fourth bad thing happen but hey 4 is the Native American number of completeness and I am half Native American, so I believe its true. Its over now. I hope and pray your mom recovers soon. Sometimes you have to get a lawyer that specializes in disability claims to get it to go thru. My DH did and it can be really frustrating to go thru. the next time you eat you can choose to eat mindfully again if you wish. You are very strong to have gone thru all this with only one step back. Now its time for the two steps forward emoticon
    IKacey co-leader of the Chair Exercise Team
    1511 days ago
    Thank God mail is only delivered 6 days of the week. emoticon

    Psalm 71:14 "But I will hope continually and will praise You yet more and more."

    Hang in there, Cat! emoticon

    1511 days ago
    Way to go! What a great attitude. I'm sorry things haven't been going your way lately. I hope your mom is doing better.
    1511 days ago
    I am glad to hear you are a little more optimistic. **SIGH** You're right though . . . in life things do happen in 3's.

    I am SOOOOO sure I am preaching to the choir on this one, but do you have an atty. to help w/your DH's disability?? That's what my little sis had to resort to in order to get her disability (she has lymphoma and renal failure.) She got it on round #3.

    Anyhow, sending hugs and hope tomorrow is a better day! So sorry for all you've been through.
    1512 days ago
    Good for you! You may not have picked the best way to deal, but you are over it and are not going to let it get you down. Just pick yourself up, have a no carb dinner and remember the sun will come out tomorrow. Hope your mom recovers quickly and very sorry about your kitty.
    1512 days ago
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