Why not just give up????
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
That's what I began asking myself today after receiving some more bad news. Over the past week, week and a half it seems bad thing are happening. In nursing we always knew that bad things happened in 3's. People always died in 3's. It always happened that way. We didn't expect anything else to happen. Well, in regular life it is the same way, not with people dying but with bad things happening.
Last week one of my kitties died, that was the first thing. Then my mom fell and broke two ribs and by the end of the week ended up in the hospital...again, and is now it looking at long term nursing care, that's number two. To top the week off we got the news today that my DH's disability case was denied again, that's number three.
After reading the mail today both of us were truly disgusted and discouraged. My heart fell to the floor and I just felt like giving up on everything. Why bother??? It seems the more I wanted something the farther away it went from me. Of course my solution was to gorge myself on the Chinese buffet for lunch. Fried wontons, chicken fingers, low mein noodles, an eggroll, green beans, potatoes and chicken & shrimp with veggies. I had a container full of food and woofed it down in a matter of minutes. It tasted so good and did make me feel better....for a little while. Oh yeah, throw some potato chips in there for good measure.
After all that DH and I went to bed to sleep off our Chinese carb high!!! After waking up I felt strangely better. My mind was a little clearer. DH was playing on the computer. I went to him and told him that the three bad things have happened so now we are in for something good to happen. I really believe that. Something better is coming along and it will be worth the wait and trials that we've been experiencing.
So, even though I wanted to give up, throw the towel in, I've come to far to let one piece of mail knock me down. There is a rainbow after the storm, a little ray of sunshine that comes out from the clouds, the "spark" still shines. That's what is happening outside my window right now. We've been having rain for days now and this evening the sun has poked it's head out between the clouds and it is shining, showing me that there is always a brighter side right around the corner.
Give up? NO!!! My next meal is a new start. I can pick myself up and keep on going. There's always a speed bump where you least expect it.