Wednesday, May 08, 2013
Just a quick update...
I've been forced offline on weekends, because my laptop is no longer on speaking terms with my wifi. Sometimes I can hardline into the internet, but that results in no Netflix on the tv, and that is generally met with such a response as to make me leery of doing so.
Today is a work-then-work day... I'll finish at the bank at 4:45, then drive straight to bath and body and work there until 9:30. I'll get home at 10, if I don't hit any traffic at all.
Cross to bear this week? Cost of windshield repair. I scouted around and found a cheaper place to get it done...still, $185. UGH. And then my coworker at the bank says to me 'you look so tired--I don't think I agree with you about this second job...' I had to take a beat, to avoid saying 'well, it must be nice to be able to look at it from a standpoint where you have a CHOICE...' But she was just concerned, I know, so I took second and responded that even the $30 I made in training the one week was helpful going toward groceries, and therefore, worth the keeping.
Bf and I have been staying up and having heart-to-hearts and keeping the lines of communication open...but it's catching up with me. I was up until almost 3:30 last night, and up at 7:30...and that's been typical. I've got to start sticking up for my sleep more...I just feel like if I don't take the time, I'll never see him--our schedules are just so different... :-/ Either way, I'm exhausted, and that's making me RAVENOUS. Fortunately, I pre-pack all my food for work and the only snacks I have are healthy ones...I can't do TOO much damage while at work... But then I get home and it's 'oh, I'll have an apple and peanut butter for a snack, that's healthy...' which eventually becomes picking around the kitchen, which is then dinner, and then a late-night snack... I'm making healthy choices, but it's still more food than I've eaten in a LONG time, and I know it's because I'm tired...and doubly so right now, because of my TOM going on.
I'm not gaining weight, really, but still...it's not healthy, not where I was, and NOT a habit I want to get back into.
I have GOT to sleep.
And then I'm going to stick to a few solid weeks of 1200 calories, while I (yes, STILL) figure out where fitness works into this equation...
Little by little, one day at a time...