Wednesday, May 08, 2013
Today I had the dreaded preemployment drug test and physical. I hate these. Don't mind the drug test...drugs don't do it for me....Sugar does! But the part I hate is the part in the exam where they weigh you. Quite honestly, I have not weighed myself in over 15 years. I am terrified of it! Weight has been such a source of pain for me in my life that that number would send me into depression. I always refuse or make something up when I go to the doctors. There will come a day when I will feel that is OK to check my weight but that is not now. Maybe in a year. I know your saying "how extreme". Well, I am sure that many people would agree that the weight issue has been a serious source of pain for them. Incidentally, my identical twin will not allow himself to be weighed either.
It gives me hope that now that I have been eating healthy for about 7 weeks that I might realize my dream. I know it will take a long time. I know that it is one day at a time. And everyday that I eat healthy and come back to spark people I feel hope that maybe at the age of 53yrs I will finally be successful. Because I did it gradually and educated myself along the way. Cheers, Keith