The Difference Between Night and Day
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
I wrote an e-mail to myself at 2 am last night:
It is 2 am and here I am talking to myself. I don't want to e-mail my friends or even the chronic illness support group because I hate whining about something only to find out that it is transitory. Which most of the time it is, because that's the nature of the beast.
This pain doesn't feel like a flare. It feels like my whole left side is out of joint - my elbow, my ribs, my hip. Lovely. I just took 2 Aleve. It also seems too hot, so I got out a flannel sheet to cover myself and have chucked the light blanket. I hope I can sleep. I've slept only lightly and fitfully for the past two hours.
This is due to the Relaxercise exercise I've been doing. It is very small movements but it is twisting and using small muscles in my torso that have not been moved in a long long time. I think it is good for me. I hope that I'm not misinterpreting it as good for me when it is bad. Since I often have pain as part of even good processes, it is hard to tell. Remind me in the morning to add myself to the chiropractic appointment on Thursday.
OK - it feels like the meds are kicking in. I'll stop typing to myself now. Good night, I hope.
This morning: I did sleep better after the Aleve kicked in. I'm in pain again now but I just realized that it is time for another dose. I'm reminding myself that I had a lot of pain when I first did the lower back exercise from that same book. But now I can do it with no pain and my back is much more flexible and the muscles aren't as tight.
Now - some really exciting news! I measured myself this morning. I hadn't measured in months because nothing has been changing - my weight doesn't budge and neither were my measurements. But today I am in shock! I lost 2 inches in my waist and 3 inches in my hips! Can you believe it? People kept telling me at Zumba that I was getting smaller but I wasn't believing them because that darn scale doesn't move more than its dance of a couple of pounds up and down.