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Be Your Own Hero!

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Wednesday, May 08, 2013



I am my own hero....I save myself from myself.

Flashback; End of February, 2012. There I was, at the highest weight of my life...286 pounds. Going to a women's gym 5 times a week and going through the motions of working out. Driving home from the gym, and stopping somewhere for greasy fried food, ice cream, candy, etc. Coming home, and spending the rest of my day sitting on the couch, eating, Sparking and watching TV. Planning to get back on track "someday."

And then a Spark friend mentioned that she was thinking of going vegan. And a suddenly, I felt a Spark. I used to be a vegan! I used to eat right and exercise! I used to feel good! I used to be healthy!



But there I was, sitting on the couch, about as UN-healthy as I'd ever been in my entire life. Addicted to processed, junk food. Lazy and unmotivated. Unable to move without getting out of breath or being in pain. Weighing 286 lbs. Could I turn it around? Could I ever be healthy again?



I had so much weight to lose in order to get back to my goal size. Just the thought of losing all those pounds was daunting. So I decided to do something radical. I would FORGET about the weight! I would kill the scale! Instead of trying to LOSE weight, I would focus on GAINING health!



March 1, 2012. The day I started stealing my life back and trying to reclaim my health. I started that morning with such optimism and enthusiasm. A new beginning! Day ONE of the journey! I was going to be a superhero!

Was it easy? No....on day one alone, I felt like quitting at least a dozen times. I thought "Maybe I should wait until tomorrow to start." But I forced myself to be honest. I knew if I waited until tomorrow, I would never do it. I would always put it off until tomorrow, and eventually I would just forget my commitment and go right back to my old ways. And to put it bluntly, that way was death.

So I fought with all my might. I ate healthy food. I tracked it. I worked out as hard as I could. In the beginning, "as hard as I could" was not that much. I quit the women's gym, and started working out at home instead. At first, I could barely keep up with the workouts. I had to modify the moves, and go at a slower pace. I could only work out for 15 minutes...and I would be exhausted, trembling, and covered in sweat. Just 15 minutes felt like I'd run a marathon. But I knew that if I stuck with it, I would get better.

Every day, I put my health first. I looked for non-scale victories. And slowly, I started seeing progress. After a few weeks, my 15 minute workouts no longer felt like they were killing me. They were still difficult, but I could see and feel that I was getting better and stronger. I pushed harder, and looked for more difficult workouts. My clothes started getting looser on me. My size 3X t shirts were no longer a little tight. The day I was able to move on to size 2X t shirts was like Christmas and my birthday all rolled into one. I cried from happiness, even though I still had a long way to go on my journey.

I went from 15 minute workouts three times a day, to longer and longer workouts. I tried yoga. At first, it was a huge struggle! I was not flexible or strong enough for a lot of the poses. Plus, my stomach was so big....it got in the way. But I kept going. Size 2X became too big, and before I knew it, 1X was too big too. I finally weighed myself in September...and I'd lost 71 lbs! I was so happy and so proud of myself!




But then I hit a snag. The holiday season came, and I somehow lost my motivation. I didn't give up, though. But I have to admit, I was not putting forth my best effort anymore. Instead of trying to do my best, I just did "good enough." My weight loss and progress stopped. But in spite of that, I kept going, and I didn't allow myself to go backwards. I did just enough to keep myself right where I was.

Perhaps it was progress to just maintain for a while, instead of slipping back into my old, unhealthy habits. Maybe you can be your own hero just by not giving up, even when you're not feeling motivated to keep going. I didn't give up, and now...my motivation is back! I am totally focused on my health again. I am ready to stop walking in place, and start moving forward, towards my goal. I know that I can reach it. I know that I WILL reach it. I am worth every ounce of effort that I can put forth, one day at a time!

Imagine what you could do by being your own hero too!






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CATNCAG 1/10/2014 1:50PM

    Love this blog! Thanks for your inspiration as always Pixie! I myself have been going through this 2 but we are our own hero's because before I would have gotten frustrated, quit & gained back all of the weight I've lost plus I'd find some extra! Not anymore baby! We got this!!!
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SUPERSYLPH 8/6/2013 9:08PM

    I have had so many times like these. I'm now getting back on track a small step at a time. Thank you!

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MONTREAL12 8/4/2013 3:13PM

  So true; thank-you for taking the time to write. I realize that following the program can be time consuming; however, it works for me. I just got back after being away for some 7 months; started to slide back and the pounds sneeked up on me; I just couldn't do it myself; that why I find your blogs so inspirational; please keep them coming. emoticon

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ELAINE725 7/9/2013 10:36AM

    This is great motivation and you are an inspiration. Thank you and keep up the great work!!! emoticon

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PATJOONWW 6/17/2013 10:37AM

    Well said!! emoticon

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MCJULIEO 6/10/2013 10:49AM

    You are my Hero of the Day! Thanks for the great blog!

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ELIELECTRIC 6/5/2013 11:11AM

    Congratulations on your strength and perseverance! Keep up the great work!

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MAW_OH 5/29/2013 9:14AM

    I can see why your blog was featured! Way to Go!!!!

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MYRNA929 5/28/2013 3:36PM

    Great job!!!! and great idea to give yourself the pep talk!

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MISSY455 5/20/2013 12:34AM

    emoticon on your progress! Thank you for sharing your story, it is very inspirational :-)

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GRAMPIAN 5/19/2013 5:16AM

  emoticon You've done so well!

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SKATER787 5/18/2013 4:07PM

    Excellent. Very inspiring story. Congrats on sticking with it through the rough patches.
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KMRJPR 5/16/2013 1:46PM

    Thank you so much for this blog!!! Its amazing how much power we give over to food and how we get stuck in a rut. It is up to me to save me from me!!!



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CHANGINGHORSES 5/14/2013 8:41AM

    Thank you. Yes, we must save ourselves because no one else can.
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CFMOSS 5/14/2013 7:42AM

    Another beautiful reminder of how we need to remember that we are okay and can do much more than we think we can.

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FLAMENM 5/13/2013 10:28PM

    Saving myself. One step at a time.

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CONCERNED85 5/13/2013 7:32PM

    This post was great. It is really what I need to do and like that you did the maintaining when got a little out of sync which is what I do during the winter. Your blogs are great. emoticon emoticon

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KALEWINE 5/13/2013 12:39PM

    Your story is so inspiring, "Perhaps it was progress to just maintain for a while instead of slipping back into my old, unhealthy habits." I like that and it's true!

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LETHANIA 5/13/2013 12:32PM

    It has been a while for me.. I've been off the wagon on the wagon lately. I totally love this blog! we are all wonderwomen!!!! thank you!!!!

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NEEDBU66 5/13/2013 11:02AM

    Super-Licisous! So many things rang true I don't think I could put them all down. Sometimes being a hero is just not quitting.... is the one that sticks out the most, though

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SFREY217 5/13/2013 9:32AM

    Thank you for sharing this inspirational message ! Keep up the good work !

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NICOFTHYME 5/12/2013 10:16PM

    You are so emoticon ! Thanks for being such an inspiration!!!

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SHARIKAYE 5/12/2013 8:15PM

    Read a little more about you today that I did not know. I am more inspired by you than ever.

Shari

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TOKIEMOON 5/12/2013 7:45PM

    You always inspire me and make things seem good and doable. Thanks for always being a sure-fire motivator! emoticon

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DIDMIS 5/12/2013 5:45PM

    Wonderful blog Pixie. I am proud of you. emoticon

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BKIRSCHKE86 5/12/2013 5:23PM

    awesome! you are an amazing person! keep it up! =)

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AMYISSUCCEEDING 5/12/2013 5:21PM

    Pixie I enjoy reading your blogs! Thank you for sharing and have a Happy Mother's Day.
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LVSHOPE 5/12/2013 5:07PM

    Thanks so much for sharing the foundation for your success... Your mindset!

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TREE57 5/12/2013 1:59PM

    Thank you for sharing your story. We all need reminders...just one small step at a time. Track everything and celebrate the NSVs!

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    you are doing emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GLORIAMAJDI 5/12/2013 1:30PM

    This is awesome! Thank you!

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CTUPTON 5/12/2013 1:16PM

    You gave me a big boost today! I can't thank you enough! Chris

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LYNNIERN 5/12/2013 9:52AM

    Love it!!

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VTMAID 5/12/2013 9:41AM

    That was an awesome blog, pure and simple!

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HELEN_BRU 5/12/2013 7:00AM

    Loved this one!

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SHANALFOSS 5/12/2013 12:45AM

    thank you for sharing your story, you have inspired me to always push harder even when I don't feel like doing anything. Thanks again
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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 5/12/2013 12:36AM

    THIS WAS AN AWESOME BLOG! Love the inspirational posters as much as your story. Thank you for sharing! Way to go!!!

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ZRIE014 5/12/2013 12:32AM

  great. keep moving forward.

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FUNNYFLOWER1 5/11/2013 11:18PM

    That was sooo encouraging to read... Even though I'm a mere 165... I live off of candy bars pizza and coffee. My terrible eating habits are hard to break. Seeing you accomplish your goals is fantastic for me. It makes me think of yo emoticon u as a winner! Oh and Happy Mother's Day! emoticon

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ANGELN325 5/11/2013 10:19PM

    That is awesome and I agree. Anything other than backwards is good in my book!

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HICKORYRN 5/11/2013 7:34PM

    Great blog!!!! Thanks for the motivation! emoticon emoticon

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