State of mind...
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
So, more people are taking notice to my weightloss. Which brings with it those questions of "How did you do it?" I start off by explaining about Spark, calorie counting, portion control, and consistent workouts. Somewhere in the conversation their eyes glaze over and they go very far away from the strange words I am saying.
I feel like my progress has been fairly slow and at times my efforts are half hearted. But, I have it implanted into my brain that I want to be healthy and I enjoy feeling better and having energy. To me, losing weight/making healthy choices is a state of mind. It's the state of mind where you choose a salad at your favorite food place instead of a burger. Not because you want to deny yourself because one bad meal isn't going to make you fat...but, because you know that the salad will make you feel better in ways the burger never could.
I don't think I've gone off the fitness deep end but, apparently those around me do. My mom insists I'm skinny enough, which I appreciate but, I'm not even to the 190s yet. I'm still hovering around somewhere between 200 and 201. But, I did lose 2 pounds this week. Two a week is plenty for me. It's giving me time to keep learning what a healthy lifestyle is and it's giving my skin time to adjust to my loss, so that only a few spots on me flap in the breeze.
It's not easy. I have days I really just don't want too. But, in the end it will be worth it. Though, I'm pretty sure I've got more people to make question my sanity along the way.
It's in the mind. The habits that got me so heavy were in my head and landed me at a high of 375-ish. Now the habits that will get me to 160 or less if it's healthy are there but, it's a work in progress.