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Cry Just a Little..

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

That song is in my head, which is fitting. Yesterday was a hard day. I let emotions get the best of me and I had a bad emotional eating day. Mother's day is hard for me sometimes and I was/am jealous over something that I couldn't control. Why? I don't know. I'm not normally a jealous person but this got me for some reason. And I'm just disappointed in myself for not trying hard enough I guess to get to where I want to be. Just had a bad pouty day yesterday. It happens. So I'm getting it all out so I can start fresh today. Laying it all out there. Leaving it on the table. I DO NOT want to carry any of that with me today. I WILL NOT. I am human. I have bad days. I pout, I scream , I shout, I get jealous, I get sad, I get mad, I have doubts. But I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I will not let trivial things get in my way. I will not let bad days get in my way. I will not let what other people do or say get in my way. I will not let ME get in my way. I am worth more than this. I am worth more than a binge is worth. I am worth more than staying in a funk and more than what depression can do to me. I am worth more than that. I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT let sadness take me down. I will feel it and I will deal with it. It will not own me. I am worth more than that.

Yes, I already used this just the other day, but I want to see it and hear again. :)
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    Very good blog and Yes we all have these days and you did the right thing for you and sometimes we just have to pour it all out there to GET rid of it !!

    move forward and get better !!

    1763 days ago
    You're only human (remember that song) emoticon emoticon
    1770 days ago
    Great blog. I too share a common stress/sadness/emotional funk with mom's day.
    And i have not seemed to escape the emotional eating around it yet in past years.
    I actually caught myself thinking about the upcoming 'event' this weekend since it never gets easy. And I am married to a am who is hopelessly glued to his mom, so while I get 'weird' on mom's day, he unintentionally adds guilt to my plate (since he stays here to care for me instead of flying home to see his mom). Ugh, it's so haaaaaard!
    But we will get through this weekend. Yesssss we will!
    1772 days ago
    1772 days ago
    Hugs to you for getting right back on track. Wallowing only makes it worst. High five for moving forward!!!
    1773 days ago
    Sometimes, I get strange moods and really don't know where they have come from. It is hard to deal with them and not turn to food. So your blog is great inspiration. We can do this! Happy Mother's Day in advance! emoticon
    1773 days ago
    Hang there! You ARE worth it!

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    1773 days ago
    I'm right there with you. Last weekend plus the first couple of days this week have been emotional for me, and I have binged every single time. We are human, and we will have the emotions, but we have to deal with them in a healthier way. Bingeing isn't the answer. So, let's pick ourselves up and keep at it. Today's a brand new day. emoticon
    1774 days ago
    I felt your emotions through this blog. YOU are so worth it!!!

    1774 days ago
    Your blog is extremely powerful.....It is an amazing, sharing experience and I thank you. I have been there many times in my life and it is very hard to get up and go after a fall. The other day I read the following in a blog: "I fell seven times and got up eight". Very powerful to me. I thank you for your honest sharing and your great spirit, and I wish for you a beautiful day.

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    1774 days ago
    I needed that. We're both gonna be successful cuz we're not giving up!
    1774 days ago
  • DB1167
    Hugs!! I hate days like those. I often have the hatred thoughts as well. I wish the best for you and Many HUGS!! Take care!
    1774 days ago
  • THIN133
    Sara, so sorry to hear you had a bad emotional day yesterday. We all have them! It stinks & sometimes , we don't have any control over them, life happens & sometimes it's simply not pleasant. I totally understand what you are saying ! Know that you are not alone in this ! You are so worth taking care of ! You are a great woman, your family loves you, you have friends. Try to remember that despite the bumps in the road, life is good . Try to shake it off, remind yourself of all the wonderful people & things in your life & focus on them instead of the things that are making you feel blue ! You can do this! I know you can ! Food doesn't fix any of our emotions or problems, if we let food rule us, it only causes more trouble for us , if we give the control to the food ! Remember you have a lot of support & you are a dear, you touch a lot of people's lives . You are special ! You are worth it , my friend ! emoticon
    1774 days ago
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