Wednesday, May 08, 2013
That song is in my head, which is fitting. Yesterday was a hard day. I let emotions get the best of me and I had a bad emotional eating day. Mother's day is hard for me sometimes and I was/am jealous over something that I couldn't control. Why? I don't know. I'm not normally a jealous person but this got me for some reason. And I'm just disappointed in myself for not trying hard enough I guess to get to where I want to be. Just had a bad pouty day yesterday. It happens. So I'm getting it all out so I can start fresh today. Laying it all out there. Leaving it on the table. I DO NOT want to carry any of that with me today. I WILL NOT. I am human. I have bad days. I pout, I scream , I shout, I get jealous, I get sad, I get mad, I have doubts. But I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I will not let trivial things get in my way. I will not let bad days get in my way. I will not let what other people do or say get in my way. I will not let ME get in my way. I am worth more than this. I am worth more than a binge is worth. I am worth more than staying in a funk and more than what depression can do to me. I am worth more than that. I CAN NOT AND WILL NOT let sadness take me down. I will feel it and I will deal with it. It will not own me. I am worth more than that.
Yes, I already used this just the other day, but I want to see it and hear again. :)