May 8, 2013
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
Well I'm back to Sparkpeople website. Unfortunately nothing happened on health front since my last entry. My weight ballooned up to 113.5 kilos which is approximately 250 pounds. I feel heavy, bloated, unhealthy. I avoid looking at the mirror. I avoid having pictures taken - but couldn't help but posing for pictures during my farewell party at work - and the pictures were sooo awful. I wish I could delete all of them. But then I though that since I can't take away all cameras and delete all nasty pictures of mine I need to get into healthy shape and make sure I have many nice AFTER pictures - that would completely erase memories of my BEFORE pictures. Need to start somewhere and make sure that pounds melt away. Good thing that I started to visit Spark website and read motivational stories. Maybe I will succeed this time.