Wednesday, May 08, 2013
Tuesday down. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday to go before I can see him again. It should be pretty easy. Work is slow and boring but I have stuff keeping me busy every night.
Tonight I met up with my friend and we had dinner and ice cream and a happy walk around Ferndale. The great thing about hanging out with Jen is that she GETS IT. She's the one that convinced me to join eHarmony. We'd swap awful dating stories. And about a month ago she met a guy outside of eHarmony - a friend of a friend. So she's navigating a new relationship and she's excited and scared, and I get it because now I feel like I'm going through it too. Then again, I went through it with Dan and that was a failure. In ways, this thing with S is less scary because I met him through a friend who can vouch for him. He's not a complete random from the Internet. But, in other ways it's scarier. On eHarmony so many of the big awkward questions are answered before you even meet. Religion. What you're looking for. If you want kids. What you do for a living. What kind of music and movies and TV shows you like. But for me, the biggest thing is that eHarmony is expensive, and people generally don't do it unless they are LOOKING FOR SOMEONE. S wasn't looking. I'm afraid I might have caught him off guard. I don't want to get too invested to be told he's not looking for anything serious. I'm not saying we have to be serious now. I just want to know it's a possibility. Man I hate when everything seems to be going really well and the guy tells me he doesn't want anything serious and that's why we have to stop.
Ugh. Right now, I feel like so much of my excitement is due to all speculation in my head. He'll say something cute and it was probably kind of meaningless in the grand scheme of things, but I can't help but latch on to some of those small things and read into them. I'm trying SO HARD not to do that. I keep telling myself to "just be cool". But I'm not cool. I'm doing alright though.
I've talked to him ~on the phone~ every night since last Monday. That's only a week and 2 days - but that much talking on the phone is kind of a big deal to me. I can't remember the last time I talked to someone on the phone that much. But he doesn't seem irritated or inconvenienced. I think he might be enjoying it as much as I am. But I'm not allowed to read that kind of stuff into anything. Must stop.
I ran my first full 5K this year. I finished up my Zombies, Run 5K training. My first nonstop 3.1 miles of the year done in 32 minutes. I think that's kind of awesome. My goal is to run it in under half an hour. 32 minutes is a frickin good start! I'm going to stick to the training and even though I've taken a couple weeks off of strength training, I'm going to get back to that hopefully tomorrow. I'm not sure when I plan to pull that off, as I've got to go out with the implementation team after work tomorrow. But I also didn't know how I was going to fit my run in tonight either. I ended up squeezing it in between work and meeting Jen for dinner.
Beechnut. He entertains the crap out of me. I'm very fond. I'm itching for him to be home. Thank you for introducing us.