Tuesday, May 07, 2013
Hello SP friends
I am starting a weight loss scrapbook I have been wanting to do it for a while now. Started collecting papers a while ago and just started printing pictures. This summer I will start to make the pages I am excited all except for the fast that all most all of the weight I lost before I have gained back. That sucks ! I have been looking back at my blogs I started blogging in 2007 lol my oldest daughter was reading some of them with me . Some are insightful and others are just funny. Some are sad and others are inspiring. One comment she made laughing at me Mom is sounds like you are talking to someone I said well I am I am talking to my spark friends. Some have come and gone over the years I have come and gone over the years. I do have a few good ones I talk to still even if its not on here any more. I did real good blogging on here I started out shy and insecure and eventually got better at writing. I found myself doing more things so I had something to blog about. Like an extra lap at the park or going to a start climbing back up that hill again. I know that with the help of Sp and my old and the new sp friends I will make I will accomplish my goals this time. Last Tuesday I weighed in at 304.5 not a good number but its a starting point.
Now to make a plan. I know what to do but still feel so lost. I think I want to try the 17 day diet then go from there. Get over the processed foods and the sugars then I want to get back to no meat I am not doing dairy right now much I find it makes me sick and my ibs worse. I think mostly fish meat right now. Some day Vegan and maybe raw as well take it a step at a time.
Now on to my day today Yesterday was a really bad day my mom gave me one heck of a morning she argued with me even followed me over to my house and called me names how much she hated me, never wanted me or loved me and all sorts of stuff. She told me she was done with me a few years ago and why do I keep bothering her all of this because she did not want to pick up my youngest from school while my jeep was at the shop and hubby was at work. I don't drive my new jeep yet but I will someday when I lose weight. I hate driving anyway. she wanted to go watch my younger sister pull weeds at someone elses house. I had to go with her after that only to get my youngest from school. she then proceeded to try to hurt me by taking me where she thought my hubby was and he was there but I knew he would prolly be there anyway since the person who he was working for owned that place as well. Finally got home. I slept awfully maybe 4 hours all night I have a cold or allergies started not feeling great coughing
Tuesday hubby worked went with mom to breakfast picked up my baby then I went home she was not going to ruin my day today. although she tried got my jeep back from the shop today finally later that afternoon she called me asked me what I wanted to eat I told her and a bit later after I was starved I looked outside and her van was at her house she took my sister and her out to dinner and got me nothing after I waited for her to come over with mine can you say sucker ! I had it planned for a few weeks today to go to the natural heath store tonight to hear Dr Holly Lucille who has been on The Doctors show and Dr Oz show among others her talk was called Healthy Happy Hormones it was very informative I learned a few things especially about why it might be that I don't sleep well when the girls let me sleep I bought a few new vitamins and things. so happy my mom behaved. Stopped at the library on the way home and got a few books that was on hold one was the new Savannah Reid Mystery Killer Honeymoon cant wait to read it and get over being sick and to sleep. tomorrow will be day 1 for me