Tuesday, May 07, 2013
I have a migraine, again. I'm pretty sure it's because I have a sinus infection (they seem to spur eachother on). My whole body aches because I'm been out of my fribromyalgia (too tired to spell right) for almost 3 weeks. Finally got some samples. I have no insurance so it costs $230 a month if I were to get it by prescription. On the plus side I might finally get to find out if I have an immune disease. My rheumotologist is sending a letter to my hospitals financial aide so they will hopefully cover the the 24 or 30 blood tests he ordered. I still have to cover the 10 blood tests my psychiatrist wants me to get. Not a pretty $$. I feel so guilty because my parents are paying for all this but I am going to pay them back somehow. I know I need to go to the doctor about my sinus infection but everytime I fl my dad acts likes it's my fault I got one. I did get The Spark Solution book today. I liked everything except the recipes. The GERD and a botched colon surgery make it so I can only eat small meals throughout the day. And alot of the recipes aren't GERD friendly. So I'm making substitutions and just trying to add more fruits and veggies. I'm just mad at myself for so many things in my life. I'm trying to get over it but to quote the song mess of me "...when you can't forgive yourself " I'm trying to but it's hard. I just feel like a screw up.