This has been...challenging
Tuesday, May 07, 2013
My "off" mood i think is finally easing up. Yesterday was by far the worst, most of if self-inflicted. My bf promised we'd spend the day together Monday. Well his sister called so when I got out of the shower I was informed that she needed a ride home from school and he had to go get her. (this is the third time in less than 2 months she's called last minute needing him to drive the 45 minutes back to his house to help her out) I understand complications and family obligations and that plans changed, but this doesn't mean that I wasn't disappointed. so I really struggled Monday. I ate some of my lingering Easter candy, and I had made a carrot cake earlier in the week (at least I'd hid some flaxseed in there) and I ate more than I should have. The day before I'd gone a little over in calories although not too bad. I went out to dinner and it was planned and I ate pretty well with only minor indulgence, but then Monday I really screwed up cause I was having a little pity party. This morning I woke up and saw it was raining again and then I had all these internet issues, so once again I'm hitting the candy while i'm on the phone with comcast. I decided I need to get out of the house, so I run to do a few errands to try and alter my mood. I come home eat some healthy leftovers and more candy. Then I finally log onto spark people and log every little chocolate egg and see the problem. I have gotten in my own way. I let disappointment be my guide versus solid judgement. I made bad choices, but I didn't let it ruin my day. I grabbed my water bottle determined to get that water in today. I looked at the calories I had left and figured out what to make for dinner (toast, eggs, and fruit) I figured out a healthy evening snack (skim milk and almonds) and I'm going to end my day within my calorie range and only a little over on Carbs. Tonight's plan is to do some meal planning so tomorrow I'm a little more focused. Darn emotional eating won a little battle, but this war is mine and I will win it!