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Tuesday, May 07, 2013

My "off" mood i think is finally easing up. Yesterday was by far the worst, most of if self-inflicted. My bf promised we'd spend the day together Monday. Well his sister called so when I got out of the shower I was informed that she needed a ride home from school and he had to go get her. (this is the third time in less than 2 months she's called last minute needing him to drive the 45 minutes back to his house to help her out) I understand complications and family obligations and that plans changed, but this doesn't mean that I wasn't disappointed. so I really struggled Monday. I ate some of my lingering Easter candy, and I had made a carrot cake earlier in the week (at least I'd hid some flaxseed in there) and I ate more than I should have. The day before I'd gone a little over in calories although not too bad. I went out to dinner and it was planned and I ate pretty well with only minor indulgence, but then Monday I really screwed up cause I was having a little pity party. This morning I woke up and saw it was raining again and then I had all these internet issues, so once again I'm hitting the candy while i'm on the phone with comcast. I decided I need to get out of the house, so I run to do a few errands to try and alter my mood. I come home eat some healthy leftovers and more candy. Then I finally log onto spark people and log every little chocolate egg and see the problem. I have gotten in my own way. I let disappointment be my guide versus solid judgement. I made bad choices, but I didn't let it ruin my day. I grabbed my water bottle determined to get that water in today. I looked at the calories I had left and figured out what to make for dinner (toast, eggs, and fruit) I figured out a healthy evening snack (skim milk and almonds) and I'm going to end my day within my calorie range and only a little over on Carbs. Tonight's plan is to do some meal planning so tomorrow I'm a little more focused. Darn emotional eating won a little battle, but this war is mine and I will win it!
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    Glad you are coming through the other side emoticon you can only go from strength to strength now!!

    I'm such an emotional eater too & even though I've not done half as good as you this time, pulling back and seeing the whole pic & getting back on with your journey, I have had a bit of an epiphany moment & just knowing that I need to start working on coping with my feelings instead of trying to eat them has kind of got my head back on the right way a little lol. The comment below by Tinksmom1 is spot on & I only wish I'd seen the comment earlier, could have saved me a few calories and the extra time it took me to come to the same conclusion lol.

    Take good care of yourself & I'm still cheering you on your way so you keep going cos you really are doing marvellous!! Even looking for the positives in your blips is great - laughed at your flaxseed comment lol - something I need to do more of, finding the positives in things, my head gets into such bad habits!!

    Anyway, great blog, look forward to your next one & keep that PMA alive and kicking, it's really making Spark work for you now!!

    1777 days ago
    Its always good when you can look back, find your mistakes and learn from them...I think that is so important! Sounds like you have found the right attitude though! I am an emotional eater too, and I really struggle with that....I have found my mantra to be I cant eat my____________(insert emotion). I try to grab water, or find something (Anything!) to do that does not involve me being near the kitchen! I do get some chores done that way! Keep up the good job, it is a journey and we all make mistakes along the way! You can do it though! emoticon
    1777 days ago
    Way to turn it around! It's hard sometimes to stay out of the mentality of "well I already ruined the day so..." but you did it! If you keep this attitude up you will be back to yourself in no time.
    1777 days ago
    Sounds like you are on the right track!! Keep trying!
    1778 days ago
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