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Tuesday, May 07, 2013

i am afraid. emoticon

i am hopeful that if i "blog" this fear out, i can leave it behind...

i have been doing pretty good on all of my goals. staying within my ranges, working out, training at karate, getting stuff done, this is almost the end of week two...

i am afraid that i am gonna let myself down. i have every other time... and things are especially stressful this week, also.

1. my car is broken down (again, $700 put into repairs last month), and i have a 40+ mile commute ONE-WAY to work. there are positives, though, the car broke down while my hubby was driving it, and he was almost home, so everyone is safe. and thankfully my daughter has a car, so we can borrow hers, so that is another positive.

2. i love my husband, but we have been arguing quite a bit this week, basically about money. i know, that is like the number 1 thing most married couples argue about. but the positive things are, we DO love each other, dearly, we DO both have jobs, so, we have SOME money, for essentials (i.e. food, gas)

3. i have been having headaches almost everyday. positive is, they are just headaches, not migraines.

4. i had a BAD dizzy spell that lasted over 24 hours. positive is, it happened on my day off, so i didn't hafta worry about working, and it is gone now.

all these stressful things i wonder if they are gonna effect my weight. i do my weekly weigh in, tomorrow. you know, what they say, when you have lots of stressors, your body will hold onto the fat. which leads me to, will i just want to give up? i don't WANT to give up, but it is SO easy to get discouraged when you are already upset about the scale not moving. i know that there are other things to look at for success, inches lost, better mood, ect, but darn it, i want to see results on the scale!

i pray for the strength to accept whatever the scale says, and keep my eyes on the prize!

and i LOVE this quote by slyvester stallone, “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!” (Rocky movie)

i will try to remember this, tomorrow...

and to everyone here, "...keep moving forward!"

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    I love the way you blog things out. This is a very positive way to handle things. Thanks for being a great example. Keep seeing the miracles all around you. I'm glad to hear you are safe and the dizzy has gone away. Don't be afraid to suceed. I think many of us are more afraid of success than failure. Keep blogging. Sincerely, Julia
    1772 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    You and your husband need to go out just the two of you and have a quiet night out, be it a picnic or an inexpensive dinner out. Talk about your stressers and the fact that you are concerned about how much you are arguing and how can you avoid it in the future. I know the feeling of stress headaches and motrin and exercise get me thru those. One day at a time, you have come so far, just keep telling yourself you are worth it. I have several conversations with myself and I have to keep pushing myself to finish the run on the treadmill or whatever, it does go along way, just push for one more minute and then another minute, just keep on pushing yourself to do what you know you have to do. Stay strong, we are here with you on the journey!
    1773 days ago
  • SARIC3
    By speaking of your fears, it not only (hopefully) helps to relieve your stress, but helps others that may be experiencing the same thing.

    I love my DH very much and we are coming up on 25 years this October. But it has its ups and downs. Lately our big money debate is about the family dog. He's quite prone to major issue. Now he has an acl tear. Several grand to repair.

    Seems like it never ends.

    Wishing you health and peace of mind.
    1774 days ago
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    1774 days ago
    Stay strong. and keep positive. Don't let the number disappoint you. Look beyond the scale. Look at how good you feel and how awesome you are looking.
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    1774 days ago
  • JOHGLO2011
    Sounds like you have had quite a stressful week! Hoping for good news from the scale for you tomorrow, but regardless, keep up the good work. It will pay off in the end and your body will thank you!
    1774 days ago
    Sounds like you know the right answers! Focus on the positive! I will hold a positive thought for you tomorrow! LOL emoticon
    1774 days ago
  • LOVE2MY3
    Life is overwhelming, isn't it? I have been pretty stressed out the past couple of weeks, and I totally fell of the wagon! Gained 4 pounds! But you have been doing a great job of keeping up with your workouts! emoticon

    My scale number has been stuck, too! It is pretty frustrating to work so hard all week, and you get on the scale expecting to see a lower number, only to see the same darn number! And I am with you on the "look for changes" thing. Yes there are other ways to see changes, but I want scale changes!! I get so motivated when I see a lower number!

    So I am with you, Girlfriend! But we can't give up!! We are in this together, remember? We have to keep going even when the going gets tough. Quitting is easy, but moving forward makes us stronger! I'm sending prayers and positive energy your way! And remember, I am only an email away. emoticon

    "Fears over tomorrow and regrets over yesterday are twin thieves that rob us of the moment"
    1774 days ago
    I have been there 3 weeks great and then, well I stop and go, stop and go. Good for you to recognize weaknesses and to grow strength from them. Keep going. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1774 days ago
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