i am afraid.
i am hopeful that if i "blog" this fear out, i can leave it behind...
i have been doing pretty good on all of my goals. staying within my ranges, working out, training at karate, getting stuff done, this is almost the end of week two...
i am afraid that i am gonna let myself down. i have every other time... and things are especially stressful this week, also.
1. my car is broken down (again, $700 put into repairs last month), and i have a 40+ mile commute ONE-WAY to work. there are positives, though, the car broke down while my hubby was driving it, and he was almost home, so everyone is safe. and thankfully my daughter has a car, so we can borrow hers, so that is another positive.
2. i love my husband, but we have been arguing quite a bit this week, basically about money. i know, that is like the number 1 thing most married couples argue about. but the positive things are, we DO love each other, dearly, we DO both have jobs, so, we have SOME money, for essentials (i.e. food, gas)
3. i have been having headaches almost everyday. positive is, they are just headaches, not migraines.
4. i had a BAD dizzy spell that lasted over 24 hours. positive is, it happened on my day off, so i didn't hafta worry about working, and it is gone now.
all these stressful things i wonder if they are gonna effect my weight. i do my weekly weigh in, tomorrow. you know, what they say, when you have lots of stressors, your body will hold onto the fat. which leads me to, will i just want to give up? i don't WANT to give up, but it is SO easy to get discouraged when you are already upset about the scale not moving. i know that there are other things to look at for success, inches lost, better mood, ect, but darn it, i want to see results on the scale!
i pray for the strength to accept whatever the scale says, and keep my eyes on the prize!
and i LOVE this quote by slyvester stallone, “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!” (Rocky movie)
i will try to remember this, tomorrow...
and to everyone here, "...keep moving forward!"