Tuesday, May 07, 2013
I went back to the physio today, after a week of doing the exercises that he gave me at our last meeting. I kind of lost it last night, on Skype with my friend. I was icing my knee after doing the exercises and I moved the wrong way and there was a stabbing pain in my knee and I just started crying.
My knee has hurt for months. All. The. Time. It hurts when I walk, it hurts when I sleep, it hurts when I sit. I am so tired of it. I'm doing the exercises, I am icing, I am being good, but it still hurts. It hurts differently now, but not any less. I'm cranky and in a bad mood all of the time, and I can tell that it is coming out in how I teach and how I deal with my colleagues. It's not good.
The physio says I have improved, that my range of motion is better, and that that muscle is stronger, but I can't really take much joy in that when everything still hurts.