Monday, May 06, 2013
So, I've lost a good eight pounds. At my weight I'm still heavy, but I feel thinner already and that feels good. But, when I was gaining and hit my current weight, I felt fatter. There isn't any objective sensation of what is feels to weight 244 pounds at all.
I do feel stiff though, not that I've ever been very flexible. That too is probably relative. I've yet to start using the exercise tapes but will start tomorrow. The good thing about my mindset is that I do know what it is like to be a normal weight and I do know from experience how my body responds to training. It is possible to gain flexibility over time, build stamina, shed inches etc. It just a matter of perseverance and patience.
I feel really bad for people with body dysmorphic disorder or anorexia or people who just get really depressed and feel hopeless about their weight. BDD affects something like 1-2% of the population. Being fat isn't the worst thing in the world especially if one enjoys food. It might not be the best thing in the world either but some perspective is in order too. I just wish everyone could be happy.