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Serious Trust...

Monday, May 06, 2013

I am a serious person. Seriously. In all seriousness I am so serious that I annoy myself sometimes. I am a person who can take a simple sentence meant as nothing more than an off comment and turn it into a life altering moment that becomes added to my journey. Ehhhhh, yeah that needs to kinda stop.

I do realize that every time I do this, that it is part of an old, established behavior that I have been putting off truly dealing with for quite some time. There are times for seriousness and there are times to shake my head, close my eyes (or roll them if necessary) and maybe, just maybe, have a good laugh.

This blog is being written because I went through another one of these too serious episodes today. Actually it began yesterday afternoon and I just dragged it on and on until it was taken care of today. Now that it is behind me, I look back at it and see such wasted emotion and worry that was so unnecessary. I struggle with wanting to kick myself over this, yet I understand why I'm still coping with this particular behavior. So kicking myself just wouldn't be fair. Kind of like kicking a dog when it's down... and I would never do that.

I've worked through so many changes over the past few years, that it boggles my mind that there is still residual *stuff* left in there that needs some tweaking. But there is and I'm acknowledging it now. I'm laying it out on the table, so to speak. I need to lighten up a bit. I need to save the seriousness for when it is appropriate. I need to open my mind up a bit more so I can accept that not everything and everyone is out to do me wrong. I can learn to trust that. I know I can.

Trusting myself has become a very important step in my journey. I don't believe that I would be where I am today without having taken the time to learn to trust a very important person in my If I don't trust myself to do the right thing for me, then why would it make sense to trust another to? Learning to trust myself has given me strength, self-esteem, pride and a host of other feelings that make life feel like a privilege to be living. Trust is built, just like our journeys are built with each step we take. Building my trust is crucial in continuing what I'm called to do in life. Trusting my decisions with my nutrition, my running, my parenting, my relationship, my friendships, etc, etc, is what will help lift me even higher in life.

And there I go again getting all serious......what can I say? I'm a work in progress ;-)

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  • NEWTON1068
    You are a beautiful person ... many of us need to learn not to be "so hard" on ourselves . I believe there is a lesson in everything and every experience(good or bad) that happens to us as humans . Remember this is a journey to self...and nothing ever happens by accident. God doesn't make mistakes. Your doing great introspective work, stay strong -Love from Ohio,Karen
    1775 days ago
    It's a part of the journey. Thanks for sharing and congrats on your achievements!!
    1778 days ago
  • MIRAGE727
    You are not alone! I've become stronger, mentally, physically, & spiritually in this journey because I finally trusted myself to go forward in a positive way. Now I challenge myself to become better. You're in the process now and it's all good!
    1778 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    One step at a time is very important. It is tough being content with our own personal "flaws". keep up the good work with realizing how you are! Keep pushing forward!
    1778 days ago
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