A Big Decision Made...... and I am scared and excited!
Monday, May 06, 2013
I have a big announcement to make, one that is just to inform, I am NOT looking for any negativity. When you read this please understand that I just spent the last 3 months going through a very comprehensive clearance procedure that included 10+ doctors appointments, many with specialists such as a cardiologist, a pulmonologist, psychiatry, dieticians, surgeons, etc. This is not a decision I made on a whim, not at all!
I am going to have Laparoscopic Sleeve Gastrectomy surgery on JULY 15th!! There is no foreign object going inside of me and no "by pass". My stomach will be reshaped into a banana sized sleeve looking shape (& size). My first year will be all about a 500-800 calorie diet, protein based with vitamin & mineral supplements. I will be working towards a 1200 calorie diet that I will maintain for the rest of my life. I am hoping to lose 100 pounds but have learned, through watching my mother that my goal decision will be made when I get closer to the number- so it may be 85 pounds it may be 100. I have met ALL criteria to be a candidate for this surgery, and I have a wonderful support system of family (immediate and not), friends and the Center for Weight Loss Surgery at Danbury Hospital.
I hope there is a place for me at Sparkpeople for this type of weight loss. I have read some negative posts from people stating it was "the easy way out" and other condescending remarks. But I have to tell myself those remarks come from people that have no idea what being diagnosed as a clinical morbid obese person is like, and I am a morbidly obese person that has dieted over and over again- and nothing comes off. And who have no knowlege about the procedure or process, it is NOT an easy way out- a statement that screams ignorance to me. I have other health issues that will benefit greatly from weight loss, I have thyroid disease, spondylosis, and clinical depression. All of these drag me down, and they all could soon cause other physical conditions that will require medication that I don't want to be on.
My Mom had a gastro by pass (bariatric) surgery on January 29, 2012 and is down 99 pounds... she looks amazing and best off she FEELS amazing. She is off all medications (except her vitamins), and added years to her life. She is 70 years old.. and has a whole lot of time in front of her now. She taught me every thing I need to know about this new "lifestyle" I am about to embark on- she has been the BEST role model. I will not be giving up anything but carbonated beverages, everything else I can have in little bits or moderation. I have alot of behavioral work to do, and I will do it. I will be going to group therapy and have a great therapist available to me if I feel I really need to work on my head game through this process!
I will need alot of support! I have already started to try and make some cognitve behavioral changes and will practice some of the new life style changes now that I have my surgery date. I will NOT lie, I am sure I will be having a few "last suppers" as I say good bye to some foods and beverages for a while. I have Bermuda to have my last hurrah in-- and I will. But inbetween I will try my best to behave like a post op patient, for some practice.
I have a couple people to thank -- for being supportive in this decision making process alone. My Mom, my friend Dan, and Susan and Kevin- they have their own personal connection to weightloss surgery and have availed themselves to me- I wouldn't be as confident with my decision without these people... they have my heart!
I will use Sparkpeople to log food and exercise when I am post op. I always have felt that accountablity to be so valuable!! I will use the Center for Weightloss Surgery at Danbury Hospital for all of my questions and will respect and abide by all of their guidelines.
I am so happy to finally have my date- and to go public with this-- for me that is the start of my new journey. I will post before pics- in July and blog when I can to keep anyone interested updated. I am hoping the blogging will also help me document this first year out.
Here's to a happier, healthier ME!