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Life is Not a Diet

Monday, May 06, 2013

I ran my 5K Saturday.

It was terrible.

It took me 54 minutes and 9 seconds. Last summer I was running them in the high 39/low 40 minutes.

In my defense, I haven't trained or worked out at all since December. Not even a little bit. I haven't eaten well. I haven't picked up a weight. I've watched a lot of TV though. And I had some EXCELLENT fast food.

I weigh more than I ever have. I stopped caring. I lived for the moment instead of for my life. There were days when I had fast food three or four times. There were days when the most exercise I got was sneezing.

I'm not going to regret it though.


You might find that odd. I mean, I knew how to eat right. I knew which exercises to do. I paid for my monthly gym membership that wasn't being used. So why don't I feel guilty??

Guilt will get me nowhere. It won't change the past. It won't change what I've eaten over the past 5 months. It won't take the 30 pounds I've gained away.

All it will do is make me feel depressed and sad.

I refuse to do that.

So, I'm taking it for what it is. Today I will do better. Tomorrow will be better than today. Slowly I'll get back to where I was and I'll do it in a way that isn't a punishment for my 5 months off track.

Because whether I weight 230 pounds of 120 pounds, I'm still a RockStar. I'm still a good person and I still deserve to be liked. So do all of you!

I'm meeting with Yoda today. I'm pretty much guaranteed the hardest workout of my life. I know that he will push me harder than he did before because he knows I need it. Plus, I'm nowhere near where I was at before. I doubt I could run for a full minute right now.

But I'm going to try my hardest.

This isn't a diet - it's my life.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
HOLLWALL36 5/7/2013 3:34PM


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STFRENCH 5/7/2013 8:19AM


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AUTUMNBRZ 5/7/2013 7:39AM

    You definitely ARE a Rock Star. And you are right, Life isn't a diet. It's a life. Proud of you! big hugs!

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MOMMA-MOOSE 5/6/2013 8:55PM

    I needed that. I've had a bit of a setback and your attitude inspires me to not give up. Best of luck to you.

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SHRINKING_SARA 5/6/2013 8:41PM


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MADZOE 5/6/2013 6:17PM

    Excellent Attitude!! I wish I could adopt this attitude more often. So glad you are meeting with Yoda tonight. I'm thinking it's time to get back in touch with my Yoda, push aside my shame and move on.

Thanks for writing this, I needed it today.

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BONOLICIOUS2 5/6/2013 2:57PM

    "Guilt will get me nowhere" - I want to blow that up, print that out and shout it to the world! You have the right mindset girl! You ARE a rockstar, and you are going to rock your workout tonight with Yoda! Good luck!

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CAROLJEAN64 5/6/2013 2:29PM

    I love your attitude. I wish we could bottle it and give it to everyone on this site!

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CAROLYN_ROSE 5/6/2013 2:29PM

    Couldn't agree with you more! Guilt gets us no where good. You just have to move on and focus on the future! You will absolutely get back to where you were and then beyond!

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ARUNNINGKAT 5/6/2013 2:04PM

    Love your approach! Negative self-talk never helped anyone. Have fun with your Yoda workout tonight! emoticon

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CECE0330 5/6/2013 1:37PM

    Re: running,. my SIL once was told by a fellow runner, after she came in DEAD LAST: You beat every single person who didn't get up off the couch today and make the effort.

emoticon Absolutely no regrets. You now have a starting point, whether it's for the 2nd time or the 102nd time. Go forth from here and ROCK IT!

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CHEETARA79 5/6/2013 1:36PM

    You can do it!

I recently started jogging again too. I did 3.25 miles on Saturday in 50 minutes. I am sssllloowww. I would love to run with you!

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PJ2222 5/6/2013 1:33PM

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